Sybil

awesome weekend

2012-02-26T02:24:00.002-08:00

spent the weekend relaxing at festive hotel and finally not having to worry about school work cause I finished them before making sure I enjoyed myself without having the feeling of something bugging me! I felt so liberated! FUCK SCHOOL. Making me age X100.

It felt good not to think about school at all and just soak in the atmosphere at RWS... managed to catch the fireworks at 9pm(blocked by buildings though), the water show with the robotic birds? Wanted to check out the ships and stuff but it was already closing @ 9pm :(

But!! Managed to get gelato from candylicious @ 1 FOR 1! Was happy lika small girl but I ordered the wrong flavour... azzuro (its this smurf coloured ice cream which was too bubblegummish for my liking)

anyway the sun was scorching and I didnt bring sunblock so basically I'm roasted... my face, shoulders... it hurt really badly last night but I applied a hydrating mask so I think it helped a little?

Hols are coming in 5 DAYS HALLEJULAH!!! there's so many things I wanna do during holidays, I know I make it sound like its damn long right... in actual fact it's only 2 weeks. ARGH

I have 3 exams next week. Sigh the thought of financial accounting exam makes me wanna cry cause I'm terrified :(((

I shall attempt to do some studying now, its already 7pm which means I wasted my entire sunday... how typical of me...

And all I can do is, try.

2012-02-17T08:30:00.000-08:00

orry for the lack of updates, schools been kicking my ass. The lack of sleep, endless assignments, and exams is taking a toll on me. I don't think I have dreaded school this much... to the point of skipping it at least once a week. It's bad I know... and laziness always gets the better of me.

Wokay, off to finish off the remaining assignment and head to bed and get set for another looong weekend...

running away

2012-02-02T07:57:00.000-08:00

One of my favourite songs when I feel like shutting the world out, great song.

It's 1.37am. I have been staring at my laptop doing everything but my school work thats due in 2 days? And I don't know why I am not feeling the urge to do it. What the hell is wrong with me?

As I pen this down, I'm thinking about my life. What have I achieved so far that I am proud of?

I feel absolutely directionless about everything. About my life, what I'm gonna work as in the future. I am so terrified of the future. Nothing seems right. There isn't a simple aspect in my life now that I am confident of. I know what I always say, see how it goes. But what if life doesn't grant you that choice of just going with the flow? What if I'm not that lucky?

I know I'm whining away again about my life when really what I should be doing is start doing something about it. What am I doing with my life? I need to get out of this shitty place I'm in. Life is too short. It really is.

Finally managed to settle all my air tickets and I'm relieved cause it's been bugging me for days- close to a week to be exact.

And I've been eating at irregular hours and the feeling sucks. I feel like I'm putting on weight everyday, like my shorts and shirts are getting tighter. But I don't care la...

I need comfort food tmr, badly. Cupcakes and thai food(without the spicy tomyam) sounds great...

2012-01-31T23:56:00.001-08:00

What i wouldnt do to just pass one day in school without hearing people talk about the fucking US trip.

some people just get under your skin and stay there

2012-01-28T07:45:00.000-08:00

Spit me out and chew me up

2012-01-27T01:40:00.001-08:00

School is sucking the life outta me. And so is all this shit happening in my life. 2012 - the end or beginning?

its always harder the second time around

2012-01-22T06:40:00.000-08:00

fav maggi mee brand

my dad always buys the wrong brand for me! try this brand! i have no idea how to read it? kang shi fu? the hong shao nui rou mian is (Y) i think its only sold in sheng siong. decided to try this new flavour (crab abalone?) but the beef one still owns my heart :)

hell yeah i spotted the double rainbow too! I didnt even know it was a double rainbow... till i saw some of the pictures on fb. sigh i felt so happy and hopeful when I saw the rainbow.

ate razor clams by adding them into the maggi soup! SHIOKKKKKKKK SIAAA

HI DO U WANNA BE MY FLEN...

Body shop lovin' - been using the first one "Tea Tree Skin Clearing Lotion" and I think its really good! The saleslady told me it's a moisturizer but I mostly apply it for my pimples.

My current obsession : Lipstick. I'm more excited about buying lipstick than clothes. How weird is that.

So yes, CNY is tmr... Can I just say I am sian about it. Like srsly. I didn't even bother to really go CNY shopping cause I have so many new clothes in my wardrobe that I haven't worn out... I keep saving them up for special occassions that never come. Sigh how sad is that. And I realised I can't even fit into some of em now :( And my plan to diet for CNY totally failed big time on me. I just had two helpings of rice (I am a fan tong) for dinner and had Haagen Daaz ice cream afterwards. Life's too short to miss out on enjoying your food, so eat up people!! You are only FAT once. I am soaking in my fatness everyday. Oh yes but speaking of shopping, I did manage to snag up some new items while shopping wif gongz at orchard and bugis (2 consecutive days in a row) Retail therapy is <3. No one can deny that!

Spent the day helping around the house - cleaning shelves, washing fridge compartments (my house has freaking 3 fridges but thank goodness I was not made to clean all 3 because that would be a nightmare.) I still can't believe I have 3 damn fridges. I should snap a picture of the fridges next time round. My friends just love making fun of the fridges. I look at it as a way that I am blessed with food all the time :) I mopped my room, tidied it a "little", washed my clothes (then it started to rain heavily knnnnnnn) and most importantly, I GOT WAXED. Not down there (if thats what ur wondering!!!) Cause I'm super hairy so mum helped me wax my moustache, underlip and chin hair(i was forced to wax this) and my knees. The feeling is super liberating... And then we waxed my bro's armpit hair- which was gross. and his armpit hair is super thick and black and he bled after that... dad and mum got damn worried. stupid pussy bro.

wokay, i predict a very boring CNY up ahead.

Cheerios xxx

I'm sorry I can't be perfect

2012-01-11T09:51:00.000-08:00

Hey, Dad, look at me
Think back, and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time
Doing things I want to do?
But it hurts when you disapproved all along
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for
You can't pretend that I'm alright
And you can't change me

When this song was first released when I was in Sec school, I could really relate to it. Now, almost 5 years down the road, I still can relate to it. It always brings tears to my eyes when I listen to it...

Am feeling extremely angsty and sad now.

As most of my friends will know, my dad and I have always shared a very close relationship ever since I was young. He is extremely protective when it comes to me hanging out late at night, going drinking/pubbing and he strongly objects CLUBBING. So I was supposed to go clubbing today but decided to come home instead. He flared up at me and said he hates the way I am acting and all? WTF it was 12+am only. I'm freaking 21 years old. I am an adult. I don't do anything illegal when I'm out hanging out with my friends? I hardly stay out and I try to come as early as possible. (think 11+pm) Does he even care!? NO. Nothing I do ever pleases him. Even if I try my best to rush home when I can actually hang out even later he is still pissed. I am tired of trying to be good, since it isn't even fucking appreciated by him. Really, I could be a rebellious teenager but was I ever? I really envy friends who can hang out late and won't get those horrible threatening text messages or missed calls from their parents (and trust me it really ruins the entire night) or friends whose parents sleep damn early that when they come home late they wouldn't even know. But no, my parents sleep damn freaking late. Even at 2am they'll be awake even on a normal working day. This just sucks.

there is no greater thrill than being happy and alone.

2012-01-09T09:29:00.000-08:00

retrieving pictures from my iphone is a bitch! i have to click on it for like 15 times or more just to make the pictures appear! it sucks that I cant bear to delete most of em but they are taking up way too much space! i have currently 3k+ pics (not including videos)!

been lazing around and enjoying the remaining few days of freedom before it ends and the gates of hell open with 4 freaking modules. I am dreading it so badly you have no idea. I don't think I've ever taken 4 modules in a semester before :( its gonna be terrible, stressful and I can already imagine me taking forever to complete assignments and panicking :( I need CHANGE.

what i did today :

met up with primary school good friend AMANDA CHNG!! after close to 1 year? Can't believe its been almost 1 yr since we last met up! I really think 2011 flew by really quickly cause so much shit happened and also because of school. We had so much fun catching up and sharing stories with one another! This is the only decent pic I have of us and I look pale and check out the pancake hair :(

Baking CNY Goodies with mum : peanut cookies

Not one of the popular new year goodies, but my bro likes it. (who cares right actually)

will just write a little about how to make them! I think its much simpler compared to making pineapple tarts

mix and mash up caster sugar, flour and the peanuts.

slowly pour in vegetable oil and mix till the batter turns dough-ish?

which is this! took quite alot of oil before it turned to a good batter. Mum mixed while I poured the oil in.

this is egg wash, which I used to glaze the peanut balls to make them appear shiny, kinda had fun doing it cause it was like painting, just that I was doing it with egg.

peanut balls all made up! I stuck in almond nuts. I actually had to glaze the peanut balls twice cause the first time round I did them plainly with egg white and they weren't shiny so I had to do a second coating with the one with egg yolk, which really retained the shiny-ness! Mum said its due to the stickyness of the egg yolk...

see the difference? so much shinier!

before putting them into the oven, good photography taking skills seh...

was kinda sad that the peanut balls cracked while baking. Think the oven was over heated, supposed to set it at 180 degrees but mum set it at 200 instead. but still yummy!

I helped her do one batch - 3 trays and she went to do another batch. Now there are like 5 bottles of them laying at home? Don't know whose gonna finish them also...

oh yeah a new look im experimenting! Not using eyeliner and spamming mascara... I think it looks okay here? I went to work the entire weekend and didn't wear eyeliner and everyone thought I looked damn tired. I don't wanna rely so heavily on eyeliner but it seems impossible. Eyeliner just makes the face brighter and more alive somehow.

don't underestimate this bowl over here. it costs 24 bucks. has anyone ever gone to 313's food republic? There's a corner stall called "Fragrance Hotpot" and everyone eats out of these huge bowls and it looks damn yummy? Well, I decided to be adventurous that day and decided not to eat the usual food and give this a try. Bloody money cheaters man. The concept of the stall is kinda like yong tau foo where you grab what you want in a bowl and then they cook it for you (based on weight). So like gz wanted kangkong and it was bundled up (it was super huge) and knowing that everything is based on weight, we had no choice but to buy the entire bunch of kangkong... Anw the main point is that the price is ridiculous and its salty! And there is only one type of base to choose from which is MALA. Shiok when u start eating it but it was way too salty for my liking... I think its a very smart money making tool though, I saw someone spend 50$, you can actually go to a restaurant and have a decent meal instead of eating at the food court. Oh well at least I tried it!

oh yeah and I worked out last friday by swimming 40 laps! NO ONE BELIEVES THIS 40 LAPS but cindy can vouch for me! Exercising really helps to relieve stress and sadness. But my calves and body ached like a bitch the next day and I ate carls jr after that. And I pigged out the entire weekend. So I guess I can kiss goodbye to the calories I burned off :(

Till the next entry, its already 2.30am!!

partyworld

2012-01-04T08:37:00.000-08:00

went to sing K ystd finally... after i duno how many eons man!!! wanted to go the $10 club but it was fully booked! So we walked in the sweltering heat all the way from chinatown to liang court to go partyworld which was X100 better than that $10 club! I dont think I wanna go back there after singing at Partyworld ystd... the room was awesome (it had some osim leg massager-- didn't use it cause I was busy hogging the mike... cindy maximized it!)

and linette hates me cause I know how to sing almost every song... NOT MY FAULT LEH BALLS! and she sang some bee gees song which I thought I didnt know and guess what? I knew! And 4 hours was totally not enough... 24 hr k marathon coming soon. AT NEX!!! Sang lotsa chinese songs ystd which was (Y), depressing though :(

ok will be in school for the next 2 days. fml. school holidays are passing by so quickly. I am dreading school reopening :'(

tokyo

2012-01-04T07:41:00.001-08:00

went to tokyo for a short period of 5 days and i love the place! The weather was so cold, I wore 4 layers almost everyday and still felt cold! Especially in the night... there was some nights it got so cold my fingers literally froze and turned red and it didn't help that I wore super lousy gloves that my mum lent to me (she kept saying they were made of suede so I thought wa confirm good... in the night I ended up with icey fingers :( )

Anw tokyo is so clean, I love their toilets- with a simple press of a button, you can wash your ass, dry your ass and you know in winter the toilet bowls get damn cold but in tokyo the toilet bowls are heated! I especially like their flushing sound (so people can't hear when your shit drops into the toilet bowl!) I super need tt function to be implemented in Singapore prease!!!

That aside, food was great OISHI OISHI! everything is so yummy~ and Japan has really cute packaging for everything, I took so many pictures of their cakes and stuff... when it comes to packaging the Japanese win hands down man! But the downside of Tokyo is the cost of living... Everything was super duper expensive... the cheapest bowl of noodles is slightly over $10?

And clothes there are ridiculously priced! Like one sequinned cardi would be 100-200 sing? That's like their normal pricing... And I realised something damn irritating while I was there! I kept getting shoved around! The people there just push you when you block their way! And the older generation are really rude? Like the old man will just push you and stuff... Got damn pissed by them shoving me around :( Anw everyone dresses so stylishly there... If I ever go there again for a longer period of time, I will make sure I bring the prettiest clothes or else damn lao kui, all the girls dress damn nicely and most of them bother to wear makeup and style their hair? Who has that kind of time!

Ok, nuff of the trip! If you're planning to go Tokyo, pls save up loadsa $$$ cos the prices will make your jaw drop!

That aside, I ended 2011 on a sad note? The first few days of 2012 weren't exactly cheery. But through all this, I realised the importance of friends. I would never have made it through if you guys weren't there listening and telling me everything is okay :) Really felt happy to have you guys by my side. After today, I am a stronger person and life is never smooth sailing is it? The most important thing is to keep a positive outlook and life's too short to be sad! SMILE EVERYBODY!!! LOVE YOUR LIFE :)

love,

sybil

tower over me

2012-01-02T10:52:00.001-08:00

2012-01-02T10:12:00.001-08:00

2012-01-01T11:36:00.000-08:00

2012

2012-01-01T07:37:00.002-08:00

2012

To base my happiness on me, myself and I.

To be stronger.

Be thankful for everything.

on my way to fatness

2011-12-16T08:02:00.000-08:00

been eating way too much for my own good. all the weight I lost is coming back to haunt me.

Ice cream after every meal is enough to kill me and I can really feel my shorts getting tighter.

Just got back from supper with euz and her friend John and I ate so much... ordered satay, shared 2 plates of hokkien mee, orh lua, chai tao kuey... the place was so crowded... been months since I stepped into chomps and when I got back I smelled so bad... twas a very fulfilling meal as I have been craving for hokkien mee and YAY! CRAVING SATISFIED! so glad it's friday today! And one more week to holidays and 10 days to tokyo! :)

Slap me please

2011-12-10T01:04:00.001-08:00

Okay,so here I am sitting down at work... Doin my own stuff.. And i realised i did not freaking bring my wallet and ez link card cause I changed my bag once again and i was in too much of a hurry to put them inside my bag. But the weird thing is i can remember to bring my makeup pouch and my hp!
Anyway, ystd was really an epic last day of school... Had to hand up case studies + final exam (which trust me i did not study for much at all...) and the final exam was cancelled because he printed out the wrong test paper! EPIC SHIT OR WHAT! I was freeeaking happy ok? But we're gonna be graded based on the case studies... Sigh win some lose some :(

Xmas is coming in another 15 days! Falalala~ am i supposed to be happy or sad i wonder?

Oh well work is really boring today... And im hungry. And byebye

could've been a princess

2011-12-05T21:18:00.000-08:00

3 more days till the end of this torturing semester... HOLD ON SYB!!!!!!!!!!!!!

its 1.25 pm and I am gonna take a bath, take a nice-short nap and start on my work! focus focus focus! HWAITING! (i had no idea what this ever meant till i googled it after seeing so many type this on fb during the whole korean pop band thingy last week) anyway it means fighting! HAHA anyohaesayo~~

anyway I've been too pessimistic lately, time to be ++ and be happy.

truth be told, I have been afraid of being happy because I'm afraid of it slipping away :( sounds sad doesn't it? Everyone thinks its dumb but somehow it makes me feel better not talking about being happy... okay I don't know what I am rambling about anymore, need SLEEP!

2 weeks + 3 mother-f-ing days to the HORIDAYS~~ SAY HORIDAYS~~ (shut up syb)

xxxx will be back!

hunt what haunts you

2011-11-19T09:41:00.000-08:00

I don't even know why I bother blogging anymore...

just took a quick check to twitter, and everyone is almost finished with their work. It pisses me off that I am not even close to finishing anything. Why am I like that? I am barring myself from visiting twitter now. Stupid shit.

fuck these tears

2011-11-16T09:44:00.000-08:00

its 1.45am and I was supposed to be tucked into bed at 1.30 but yet here I am still awake with swollen eyes and a leaking nose.

I guess I just had to let it out - all this anger, fustration, hopelessness, defeatedness...

Life is passing by so quickly and yet here I am still stuck in the same place, and not progressing, seems to be just going downhill. As much as I would like to have a positive outlook on life, it just seems tough sometimes especially when you have lousy people in your life ruining things for you. It may just be a small tiny matter, but somehow it really gets under your skin.

I feel like just not caring about anything and not feeling anything but I am only human right?

I used to be a much happier person, but now look what has happened... I want the old me back. The cheerful, happy go lucky, free spirited girl I once was. Help me find her back... pls?

With a heavy heart,

Syb

things will work out one way or another, yes they will.

2011-11-15T08:01:00.000-08:00

yep, thats how I spent my halloween! Loooong overdue pics that I havent had time to blog about everything... but i guess a picture paints a thousand words right?

Am staring at my computer screen and I don't feel the least bit like doing any work. I don't know what has come over me... its like I have lost the motivation to do anything. Btw, have officially lost my appetite :( I don't know how to explain it, but its just gone. Sigh who can make it come back again?

I turn 21 in exactly 7 days! Happy yet sad. They say once u cross 21 time passes really quickly... :(

Till the next time :)

I am sorry

2011-11-12T00:59:00.001-08:00

Cuz the walls burned up and our love fell down
And it turned into whatever now we're saying never
Feel the fire cuz it's all around and it's burning
For forever and always
We gotta let it go, be on our way
Look for another day, cuz it ain't the same my baby
Watch it all fall to the ground
No happy ever after, just disaster

2011-11-08T05:08:00.001-08:00

i hate school.

same old same old

2011-11-02T21:27:00.001-07:00

in school right now, staying back to do my menu for food cost (bleah i dont even know the exact name of the module), its due tmr and I am sort of freaking out... this is one of those semester

that I hate. School everyday, 3 modules, each having their own assignments.

Been looking lika wreck to school, I dont have time to put on makeup and comb my hair and I take super long to choose what to wear but in the end I still dress like shit. It's like I can't even bothered to look decent anymore.

ok, I have 3 hrs to fully maximize my time here... tata will be uploading loads of pics once tmr is over! Hope ur life is more interesting than mine :(

an unexpected loss

2011-10-09T07:59:00.000-07:00

am lying on my bed blogging. its 11.06pm and i already feel like sleeping.

today, I dropped my iphone4 into the toilet bowl at marina bay sands convention centre. I was at work. I must have stoned for at least 3 secs before I realised my phone was in the toilet bowl. IT SUNK ALL THE WAY DOWN. IN MY PEE. I had to scoop it up YES. i didnt dare tell my colleagues it dropped into my pee so i lied and said i dropped it whilst flushing. I touched my pee... fucking hell. it was horrible. I watched my screen fade away... super duper depressing moment

it is now sitting in a tupperware full of rice. I tried hair drying it in the toilet and my fone was literally burning cos its surrounded by metal and stuff.. I was so afraid it was gonna explode! Okay, the thing is the whatever thing that was supposed to turn red didnt and I'm really praying I'll be able to change for a new phone cos my phone's warranty isnt up... Sigh this sure taught me a damn bloody impt lesson : never ever bring your fone into the toilet. Okay, even if u do dont put it in your pocket or you're gonna be so sorry. I am now. My iphone is always with me, like almost 24/7 and now I'm alone. Its like my phone isn't stolen but yet I can't use it. And the worse part? iphone4's sim card is a mini sim card that cant be stuck into my old nokia hp which I have no idea where it is anyway.

So I guess I'll have to learn to live without my iphone, which trust me, is really hard... no more facebook on the go, no twitter, no apps to play with while I'm bored... no more checking of emails. Seriously, IPHONE is the best invention ever made. (RIP Steve Jobs, you are a genius) Ever since Iphone came about, its made not only mine, but everyone's life so much more convenient. Sigh, talk about HEAVY RELIANCE on technology. This is definitely one of it. Don't think I can ever get back to using a normal phone ever since I switched to iphone almost a year ago. Oh well, said enough shit here.

Am waiting for white collar season 3 episode 10 to load, and I am officially in LOVE!!

check out my new bf

TOTALLY SPEECHLESS. he is so damn handsome. But! I think he's gay, according to wikipedia. Watched a few of his interviews, and he's really... almost perfect. Time to wake up my idea cos there is no such thing as a perfect guy ever. I have definitely come to terms with that fact. Oh well, he shall be my crush from now on :) MATT BOMER I LOVE YOU!

monday + tuesday

2011-10-04T23:15:00.000-07:00

monday - school starts at 12, wakes up at 11.15, reaches school at 13:45

tuesday - school starts at 8, wakes up at 7.30, reaches school at 8.40

oh well! at least i wasnt the latest...

fell ill last night and had a horrid night, i kept peeing and i was hot and cold... finally managed to get some rest at 3am +? The weather was so damn good I didn't wanna go but I pulled myself outta bed eventually...

I feel I have no life. All I wanna do is come home and lie in my bed.

ALMOST FORGOT TO BLOG ABOUT THIS... only told a few ppl about this incident, which trust me, makes me burst out laughing everytime I talk about it.

So i was sick last night and was trying to catch a quick nap at about 9pm, and my bro was playing his games and making hell loads of noise (you know how noisy guys can get when they play games... idiotic) and he was prolly wearing his mega huge earphones. I was so damn pissed I took the house phone and dialed his hp number...

ring ring...

"my bro" - "ya"

Me - "EH! STOP SCREAMING AND LAUGHING SO LOUD I M TRYING TO SLEEP!!!"

"my bro" - "huh"

Me - "I SAID STOP SCREAMING AND LAUGHING! I M TRYING TO SLEEP! IM SICK YOU KNOW!"

"my bro" - "huh"

Me - AH FUCK YOU LA

HANG UP.

30 secs later i was wondering why my bro just kept saying huh so i decided to call him again, this time redialling the number. He picks up and I asked him if it was him who picked up the phone just now and to my horror, HE SAID NO. dammit.

Oh well pity the poor guy who just "huh-ed" the whole way while I was screaming my lungs out. There should be more blockhead guys like that, who say huh when we, girls scold them. But then again quite fustrating for your boyfriend to keep going HUH HUH HUH when you're damn pissed right?

tata~ LAW PRESENTATION TMR... i dont know if I prefer my group to go tmr or monday... better to get it over and done with though! KAM PA TEH!

Unsettled

2011-10-02T10:52:00.000-07:00

I hate how I take things so easily, like school work. its like theres something staring me in the face and i still can do everything except my work. I'm a disgusting and lazy person!

Oh well, to motivate myself further, SCHOOL HOLIDAYS STARTS OFFICIALLY 14TH OCT!!! FOR LIKE ONE BLOODY WEEK. F THIS OK. Should've known what I would be getting myself into when I signed up to be in UNLV.

and then off i fly to bangkok for 5D4N!!! cant wait to shop, get massages, eat roadside food and get away from SGP!!!

will upload pics i took over the weekend after this law madness is over ;)

oh yes i am feeling damn FAT. like seriously, i havent been eating all that much, i eat like 2 meals a day and I still feel as though I'm gaining weight like nobody's business. This feeling really sucks. I wanna exercize but I'm too lazy. Shall stick to starving myself. grrr. To think I just ate 3 mcnuggets and 2 bites of a Mcchicken 2 hrs ago. FML. bai

came across this randomly

2011-09-27T11:39:00.001-07:00

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.

Lazy

2011-09-25T10:27:00.000-07:00

Really sucks that I have zero motivation to do any school work. I keep getting distracted by stupid stuff!! Like watching trailers of shows and looking at pwetty pictures of other people's tumblrs...

I got up at 1 today, finished my lunch at 1.45 and 5 mins later I crawled back into bed and fell back into sleep instantly - till freaking 6pm

have to regain my energy back... goodabye

do not disturb

2011-09-18T10:32:00.000-07:00

i really shldnt be blogging :(

been surviving on <5 hours of sleep everyday.

pimple breakout on my cheeks (this is a first- awful)

i feel bloated everywhere...

time check : 1.35am

just threw tantrums at almost everyone cos there was little food left for me.. dad didnt tell me he went out to buy supper whilst i was busy doing my law shit in my room with an extremely loud growling stomach. came down to remnants of sing chew mee fen. pissed. just toasted my all time cure the hanger pangs bread with cheese accompanied with oranges. absolute love. :)

been super irritable due to the lack of sleep and i've been snapping at everyone. oh yes im kinda scared of drinking coffee now. i dont know if its cos my body is at its possibly weakest state now that after my 1st cup of coffee at work today, my hands started trembling... sigh i was so worried i would die at that very moment. CHOI! but still...

dad was really great to me this weekend. he fetched me all the way to The Regent Hotel for work, saved me so much time and i got to wake up later than usual. Sometimes im so blessed I forget how lucky I am and I still complain so much about every damn thing in my life. I oughta be shot i tell u. Always remember, through the good times and bad times to always count your blessings, a constant reminder to myself.

All the best to me + classmates chionging. Last lap. I wont sleep if i have to.

All time low

2011-09-17T05:41:00.001-07:00

another reason why i love "The Wanted"

having the absolute most tiring week of my life. almost broke down just now.

Dear Lord, give me the strength...

there were no words left, we'd said them all

2011-09-15T12:49:00.000-07:00

gimme back my life

2011-09-13T10:07:00.000-07:00

ive fallen into a rut. Been taking really long naps in the afternoon - when I say long, I mean like 4-5 hours kind. Just like today! I fell a sleep at 2, supposed to get up at 4.30 in the end i woke at close to 6.30? I mean its shiok and all but it results in major insomnia ;( and it sux. to the core.

Class was 8am today and I fell asleep only at 4? And the worse part was I completed nothing! Its 1.15am now, planning to stay up till 5 to complete at least 2-3 pages of the law report :( btw work fucked up for me and I have to work this weekend when I have this law shit staring me in the face. Stephy helped me a little by explaining the terms and all. now its just up to me to complete this and show em what i got!

Sigh linette jio-ed me to go h&m but i told her I am chained to two places for the entire week. Home and school. Enjoy h&m without me borsh! :'(

back to the books. shitty life.

light up my life

2011-09-11T06:41:00.000-07:00

Just came back from work. Two days of working and zero work done = a very worried me. I'm so extremely exhausted, eyebags are looking heavy and I'm still in my working attire with a full face of makeup. So lazy to get up and bathe. Haven't been having proper meals. I just had a wonderful home cooked dinner. Porridge with lou! In case you guys didn't know what lou is, its like this black sauce thingy that you cook with chicken, egg and its the best shitz ever. Its simple yet it always makes me super happy to eat it, especially with porridge! I'll dribble gravy all over my porridge, cut open the hard boiled egg and mash the yoke (sounds gross but really you shld try it!) Felt so happy to be able to be home eating with my family after such a long(not forgetting boring) day at work. And for the first time, I ate salted egg! Haha, weird that I never ate it before, only saw my sis happily eating it and today it was my turn to eat it happily! Oh ya, my mum sneakily drank the last bottle of yakult which I "hid" in one of the fridge's compartment! Irritating!

Doubt I can get started on my law assignment today, shall I leave it to tmr? Sigh, its things like this that I hate school! And what more its law! :'( dont know how my sis does this shit everyday. Pity her...

Signing off xxx

friday.

2011-09-09T08:46:00.001-07:00

Perfect Nightmare

2011-09-08T09:20:00.000-07:00

bought two pairs of sky high heels ystd (think 6 inches) sigh i thought the black ones were nice, cause they were patent and the heels were thicker... but turns out i look more like a hooker in em! :( my dad absolutely hates em and my mum and sis thinks they r waaaay too high and impractical :( btw the red ones are absolutely love! stilettos and super comfy! wore em to zirca ystd and they didnt hurt like a bitch :)

Happy 23rd to my sissy! <3 - you look prettaye here :)

absolutely hate my face here, but this is the best of the 4 shots we took :(

k, managed to take a pic of me wearing e black ones

went for ippudo with cindy + ligang(cindy bf) after stupid crazy love which was GREAT!!! :)

kinda tempted to get this dress, but it was 80$ and the fit wasnt great... straps werent adjustable!

o well, wasted my entire free day today sleeping till 4pm... dont know whats happening to my body! arrgh! havent started on law assignment, which is starting to creep me out. Btw I waxed my knees + upper lip today and next imma wax my armpits :) Feels great to have hairless knees! The rest of my leg isnt hairy but I think the reason why my knees are so hairy are cause I had many scars (riding bikes during younger days and all), and its just hairy yoooo!

I'm sorry ;

I cant hate you anymore

2011-09-06T07:57:00.000-07:00

spent sunday at MBS with the classmates - snapped a few pics but sigh my camera sucks... the pics dont do the place justice at all! I reached the place kinda late, supposed to meet at 2? I reached at 6! Couldn't get myself to wake + packing was a bitch. Didnt know what to bring, and had to lug my textbook! I loved the infinity pool, just that its a tad crowded... and the water is really cold in e morning! The jacuzzi was great... :) sigh if only I could stay there longer and not go to school :( Glad that I went cos I managed to bond with my classmates even more - namely QQ, Amanda, Oli and Joanne. haha. But the only thing was I was a zombie the next day in class cos none of us had proper sleep tt night...

its 11 and I spent the whole day sleeping @ home. Needed to recuperate on my rest. My forehead just broke out :( hope the sleep helped it a lil'!

my life seems a little tragic - my room looks like a warzone, clothes are scattered all over my bed, forgot there was a test this morning- it was easy but i didnt study so i fucked it up while everyone around me knew exactly what was going on. Havent touched my law text... sooo many things to be done, time is ticking away, life is flashing by, and yet here I am, stuck. It's been sooo long since I felt so low and self destructive, correction, I have never felt this way ever. I think this was really the single most breaking point in my life.

Here's to hopefully a better week. :)

I dont believe in fairytales, but I believe in you and me.

2011-08-26T11:42:00.000-07:00

I have so many pictures to upload I dont even know where to start!

Ok i decided to upload one whole shot... took longer than i expected. wish there was an upload all at one shot button. Its 3.15am now and I'm finally blogging! Had a hell of a week starting from SIT Orientation last weekend - had a great yet tiring time, made new friends and had a blast! I wasn't super enthu throughout both days I know, guess I never was a RAH RAH COME ON LETS DO CHEERS ALL DAY LONG KINDA GAL, and i'm fine not being that :)

Oh wow i just got hit with a wave of giddyness.. wth man. oh yes continuing! Didn't do much for this week actually! Just mostly slacked around! Boring but I LOVE IT! just laying in bed and not doing anything is srsly the best feeling in the world! And no worries!!! No assignments to worry about, no project deadlines... :)

Went with the classmates to play at USS ystd and headed over to pasir ris for class bbq afterwards! Was super drained but I had loadsa fun! Lois pizza was great! Just check out the size of the pizza man! I actually felt full just by eating one slice! Must try when you go to USS! Get the pepperoni! wa damn hungry thinking about it now... yumz yumz! Oh yes we even got a free picture cos my friend Joshua was working there! And oh yes am hating e pics cos i look so damn fat! arrgh! I eat two meals a day now and still not losing any weight. damn pissed with myself. :( oh and i finally did jump shots! Hopefully amanda will upload em soon, I shall QC em before deciding if I shld upload em' here!

And about 2 hrs ago, I finally got down to learning how to make the cheesecake from my mum. I don't know if I've mentioned this before, but my mum loves to bake - cookies, cakelets blah and I never bothered to learn anything! But I finally decided to do it today since I was free and amazingly its quite simple! I'm gonna try baking it again one of these days! I know I only know how to bake cheesecake now, but hopefully I'll know how to bake cupcakes or strawberry shortcake next time! But strawberry shortcake seems a little tricky... hmmm we'll see!

Oh well not much to say here except that I'm sad that this is the last few days of hols before all hell breaks loose! All good things must come to an end... somehow.

We survive by remembering, but sometimes we survive by forgetting.

How apt really.

sober

2011-08-14T07:04:00.000-07:00

And I don't know
I could crash and burn but maybe
At the end of this road I might catch a glimpse of me

my room is in a bloody mess and I can't get myself to clear it.

HOLIDAYS HOLIDAYS... makes ya X10 lazy.

save the world tonight

2011-08-13T05:59:00.000-07:00

Lonely saturday night. been complaining about my weight gain to almost everyone. Despite the fact that I have been making the conscientious effort to go running and not eat after 8pm, I still have not been able to shed the extra bloody weight which I dont even know how I gained in the first place.

Check out the orientation pic! This game called caterpillar was horrible! We were doing the dry run for SIT Orientation next week and we had to be the guinea pigs so we would know how to faciliate the students we would be taking on and it was... bleah! Firstly we had to sit on the grass and drag our bodies (more like butts) across the field and we were wearing fbts and my ass was the one bua-ing the grass. Couldnt wait for the game to end and all I ended up with was grass in my undies. NICE ONE LA!

Weather was scorching, freaking unforgiving sun. Thank goodness for the sunblock cheryl brought or else... my face would totally be peeling and red by now. Many funny things happened though! 1/2 of Cheryl's sports shoes came off, I pretended to be Storm from xmen amongst others. It rained heavily towards the end which I guess was a good thing? Walked in the drizzle and took a hella long bloody bus ride home. Throat is feeling a little itchy and I jus sneezed!

I do not wish to fall sick for the first day of bloody holidays that I have not had since like MAY. DAMMIT STUPID SCHOOL.. damn glad to be having holidays!!! Even though its gonna feel really long cos I lack companionship but I think I'll manage fine?

Sigh really want my fringe to grow longer and I need to dye my hair again! Will prolly be dyeing a darker colour to cover my light hair colour, think reddish dark brown, but more brownish like the last time!

There's nothing I really look forward to anymore, its more like I'll just take on anything that comes cause life is much better without expectations or emotions.

toodles... so sad no one reads this space anymore :(

national day

2011-08-09T23:19:00.000-07:00

spending my lovely public holiday burying my head in accounting notes.

was hoping for some rain so I could have an even better sleep...

stupid iphone

2011-08-05T09:52:00.000-07:00

Took damn freaking long to upload these 3 pathetic pics cos whenever I connect iphone to my lappy it takes forever before the images load... is anyone facing the same problem? I have to repeatedly press Sybil's iphone like 10-15 times before the pics appear... lame shit.

had a wonderful end to this horrendous week by meeting up wif my girlfriends... spent the entire day at bugis... as much as i dread going to bugis to go to school, it has definitely become one of my favourite shopping places today!

headed to ramen champion at iluma today to try out the ramen, interesting concept and I'm glad I ordered something that tasted good! The ramen wasnt yellow gross noodles, you know that kind that is like the maggi version of yellow mee, the ramen i ate was kinda floury but yet a little QQ! lychee and I ordered the same - large bowl of something (it was a jap name). The downside was that there were only two damn pieces of char siew inside.. teeny tiny. Soup was kinda salty too.

Broke my so-called diet plan and drank a whole cup of KOI milk tea! :'( itchy mouth me... but i havent had koi in like close to 6 months? cos ive been drinking gong cha.. but still prefer KOI's milk tea! :)

anyways we headed back to school for a few rounds of MD... Gong zhu went off and the 3 of us went on a major shopping spree! I was kinda sad at first cos everyone was leaving at around 7 plus and I didn't have any plans but as we started shopping we couldnt stop and everyone changed plans and just continued shopping! I spend close to a $100 but I never felt better cause it was for like 5 items? Freaking good buys! I bought a drape cardigan (super love!), utilitarian blouse (been tryna buy this for ages but never managed to!), 2 midi skirts + a pair of pumps that i was super attracted to and one that made cindy and linette buy it as well! Its super pretty but my sis says it looks damn disco... spoiler.

I wore my new wedges tdy and my feet were killing me by the end of the day! Cant even rmb whens the last time I even wore heels/wedges.. been slippers all the time cause I cant be bothered to dress up for school.

Cant express how damn glad this week is over but am totally not looking forward to work this weekend... travelling to regent is gonna be a pain in the butt... plus dad went overseas so no one to drive me to the mrt station :'(

really tired now gonna oink...

btw am really hating my hair now... stupid fringe pls grow soon... my weight gain is totally adding on to the roundness of my face. fml man!

Shake up your tired eyes the world is waiting for you

2011-08-04T09:22:00.000-07:00

1)Had an interesting start to my day! Witnessed a man fall into the platform gap and it all happened within a split second! The moment he fell in, the men standing by the door pulled him out almost immediately.. told my classmates about what happened and they were all curious about how he even managed to fall inside in the first place! I dont rmb him being super skinny... but he definitely wasnt fat.. like his whole leg went in... freaky right!

2)Swallowed chewing gum... long story. tried forcing myself to throw up when i got home but in the end decided to force it down my throat...

3)Finally slept for a good 3-4 hours. This week has been absolutely hell for me

4)Accounting test buang. Thanks for Form C Jim.

5)TGIFRIDAY TMR. But i have to stay back all the way till 7 for SIT Orientation. FML MUCH.

6)6 MORE DAYS TILL THE END OF THE SEM!!!!! HANG IN THERE PEEPZ.

7)IMMA OUT

going crazy

2011-08-03T06:18:00.000-07:00

school sux
i hate exams
i hate studying
i like to sleep

my week

2011-08-02T05:47:00.000-07:00

tues - project
wed- FM final exam (oh lord save me)
thurs - Accounting Test + Project ( - - )
friday - FM Presentation
Sat and Sun - Work

welcome to my life.

set fire to the rain

2011-07-30T10:47:00.000-07:00

its coming to 2am and im not asleep yet. been trying to complete some work the whole day but said to say nothing was done. yet another unproductive saturday.

been eating like nobody's business and feeling like a piece of crap... i weighed myself and was totally demoralized. must be the supper and extra helpings of rice that contributed to my weight gain. i cant help that i love my carbs! argh! i am really determined to lose the extra 2 kilos. i think i need to lose another 3-4 kilos and i'll be happy!

i jus realised i havent been early for a single accounting class.. except maybe once? for the first lesson! i jus cant get myself to get up for school.. 8.30am classes really suck. i am suddenly wondering how we made it for 8am classes the previous semester!

on a side note i had a very interesting week as i finally tried paintball for the first time and it was freaking scary! i dun think i wanna go back and play again cos i suck at the game... but everyone should definitely try it at least once! its scary but i guess the thrill of it all makes up for it, and yes prepared to have a few new blue blacks!

i have hell loads of pics to upload but that'll be another time as i have proj work due tmr and nothing is done... gonna try to do a little... been wasting too much precious time on nonsense...

signing off, syb

an itch we shouldnt have scratched

2011-07-22T05:20:00.000-07:00

i choose to be happy.

Next to you

2011-05-28T10:34:00.000-07:00

Its 1.35am. i am supposed to be sleeping cos I have work tmr at 10.30am at freaking universal studios... i'll don on that "lovely" orange uniform and smile... and im gonna be extremely tired. But such is life. The only reason why I am working tmr is I don't wanna get fired! It's been 1.5 months since I worked and I am ashamed :( I was just really lazy plus school was such a bitch last sem!!
That aside, theres 4 assignments due on monday which I haven't started on. How now? Dig my own grave and pray that I will have excess energy left tmr to complete this.

Have a great sunday ahead! :)

when will it be enough?

2011-05-23T02:06:00.000-07:00

sigh, got back nutritional science MCQ quiz back today... didnt do well :( i hate MCQ! never did well in them.. i always change the correct answers into wrong ones... because when you've finished and keep thinking... u will tend to do stupid things such as this. So yes, there is gonna be another exam tmr and am praying hard I can remember all the stuff taught from the lousy professor who doesn't give a shit about what she is teaching (going over wrong slides and not awarding us marks for the correct answer, what the crap)

Btw the weather is freaking INSANE! i carried an umbrella walking in the hot sun and i was still sweating!! and i never carried an umbrella for the sun till recently cause it is just too DAMN HOT. and oh ya gonna bring shades out soon! Thank goodness my dad came back and gave me a lift tdy or else i would be sweating like a piggy! *oink*

O well life is gonna be different for me, definitely looking towards being happier :)
Sigh really craving really badly for IKEA now but shall tahan!!

I'm so hungry now :( wanted to eat freshness burger just now cos June was gonna buy but she didnt buy in the end and the burgers just looook so good!!! shall get e rest to join me to eat it soon! sigh so many things I wanna eat now.. La mian and xiao long baos sounds good.. a bar of kinder bueno, perhaps berry smoothie from Mcdonalds would make me extremely happy...

But for now, a cold shower and then back to the books!

toodle dooooo

hi im back

2011-05-18T07:02:00.000-07:00

Havent blogged in three months... theres just too many things going on and i feel so lazy to blog... also because nothing much in my life has changed... i still go to school, i still hang out with my fav friends and i am still a lazy bum.

My one pathetic week of holiday is over... i mostly bummed around at home... played monopoly deal and enjoyed the carefree lifestyle... sigh its sad that we have such little hols :( everythings like a mad rush. Once this semester is over, the next semester comes and it just never ends...

School last semester was horrible. The individual assignments and project work was enough to kill. And we had to read a storybook for literature and write about it!! Omg... thank goodness everything is over... But this semester the professor seems really bitchy. Like the first day of lesson, just because we walked in after she called our name from the attendance sheet, she freaking marked us ABSENT. WTF RIGHT!? And my number is like 5!!! And i came in while she was reading the second page alr... Talk about being SUAY. oh yes! Speaking of SUAY, i seriously have been down in luck... :(
just lost my iphone charger 2 days ago as i foolishly left it in the hotel drawer and hurried home and just the day before this I left house without my ez link and was late for work... not really unlucky but more of MISPLACING MY BRAIN. and today i lost my hair tie cos i took off my cardigan... I should really be more aware of my surroundings. And my new denim shorts stained two of my bags. HOW GREAT!
Here's to better luck, more concentration in class for this semester and keeping my focus on the important things.

toodles!
till the next time...

I'm so lazy

2011-02-15T07:59:00.000-08:00

Took this before I went out for vday lunch that day... This year ah liang attempted to give me a surprise but failed kinda miserably? He made this compilation of the old pics we took together and put it together in a powerpoint slide accompanied with music... Ok I was kinda touched? Some of the photos were really gross... Like dating back to year 1 when my face was sooo round but looking at the old photos just made me smile :) He's not the romantic kind so I pleasantly surprised he actually bothered to dig up the photos and describe each and every picture... Thanks piggy :D

So anyways a bunch of 4 friends spent vday with one another - Me, Linette Cheryl and Cindy... Was forced into eating Kenny Rogers! Nothing fantastic except for the side dishes and the menu was really limited. Don't think i'll be going back there anytime soon.

Anyways we hung out at Toastbox and I drank my all time fav coffee KOPI GAO. Gong zhu keep saying how I don't look like I will drink kopi gao but I really love it! Thick and piping hot coffee is my fav... So that coffee actually kept me awake till 2+ gg 3am so I was able to mug a little for marketing test today. School was at 8am btw. You can imagine... And I napped for like less than an hr jus now! :(

But I'm kinda glad that we got to hang during vday and I got to see for myself just how expensive a bouquet of flowers can cost... like a small Ferraro rocher chocolate bouquet was like 100+? A bouquet of flowers was 110++... oh well...

I'm so damn lazy. I reached home so early and I haven't done anything except like 4 math qns out of which 2 I can't solve and I gave up from there. Starting to lose that OMPH that says I WANNA DO WELL y'know? And I see all these chiongsters and I get very annoyed.
Speaking of which, people should really practice how to be HUMBLE. yeah, just cos you know more than whoever doesn't mean you can be so stuck up or whatever. Just you know, be humble and listen to others? Sometimes the things I hear and see can really irritate the hell outta me but I shall just keep them in and REN.

I really wouldn't mind having this as a tattoo. Everytime someone pisses you off or when the tough gets going, just look at it and REN~ Something that I will be doing very soon especially when I enter the working world. Once again, DONT REMIND ME.

alright, its alr 12.30am and the two episodes of GG have totally killed my interest to even start on the writing assignment due next week. KILL ME NOW.

Till the next time ;

Sometimes You Can't Make It On Your Own

2011-02-06T03:46:00.000-08:00

CNY IS NOT CHINESE NEW YEAR WITHOUT THE FOLLOWING!

1) Pigging out. Bak Kwa, pineapple tarts (No.1 Killers). Haha too bad I didnt have much of those this year! Instead I chose to pig out on worse things such as RICE, Peanut crackers (high in fats but so tasty) and other stuff like chicken wings - speaking of which I just consumed about 10 this afternoon. But! The chicken wings were skinny! Not like big fat and juicy kinda wings... More like anorexic wings :D Guess that helps me a little? NO?

2) Pretty Outfits :)
CNY this year gave me loads of reasons to shop for new clothes but sadly I ended up with only 3 outfits that I really liked! Both of these pics were taken by my sis and I am loving the angle... But once I turn my face... hehe . Anyway I used 2/3 of my outfits so YAY I can reserve the last one for another special occasion :)

3) The animals!
I know its usually babies but didn't get to visit those with the lil kiddos so I replaced babies with animals heh!
Haha the pug on the top is my grand auntie's dog and his name is Ming Eu! I dun really know how to spell it but he is one cute lil thing! I hate those temperamental dogs... I prefer friendly dogs who aren't afraid of strangers!
The fat cat you see at the bottom is my uncle's cat, called MAGIC. Freaking fat cat who eats hell loads of good food like durian etc... Which is why she weighs 9kilos. FAT for a cat! Anw thats her eating in the pic again...

4)Catching Up and Visiting
Cousins, Ah mas, Grand Aunties. Aunties... Once a year I see these people and most of the time awkward and boring but this year seemed alright... Pigging out and asking the normal questions... :)

5) Celebrating my Dad's Chinese birthday
As my dad's birthday usually falls on the first day of the lunar new year, he'll go to my grandma's hse to have his birthday noodles. It looks yummy yea? But the noodles are sweet... Not really my taste but o well!

6) Mani Pedi
Was really an eye opener going to the manicure shop at Bugis - Milly's. It's quite popular cos they actually sponsor many famous bloggers to go there to do their nails. But from what I observed, hygiene standards were bad. They chucked their cotton wool and those cleaning stuff in a dirty drawer and frankly the lady who did my nails did it sloppily and stained quite a few of my fingers and I had to ask another lady to clean the stains off. And she was very rough! I mean express is express la, but must do until so sloppy meh?
Anyway so many ladies were getting their nails done especially for CNY! Call me sua ku but I this is actually my first manicure. The bali one aint counted! I don't usually spend money on my nails cos they chip off quite fast. But this year I decided to do it since gong zhu was doing her gel nails and I had time to spare. I really liked the colour I chose though! Maroon! :) I guess manicures are good in a sense that you have pretty shiny nails and you can't stop admiring them!

Went out with piggy yesterday and finally got to buy garrett's popcorn as we were at marina square and settled at Citylink's Asian Kitchen for dinner. Had my favourite braised duck and mushroom noodles, porkchop fried rice and Ah liang ordered some spicy softshell crab noodles which were quite tasty actually! And not forgetting pan fried pork dumplings! And guess what? I was still hungry after that.
The queue for the popcorn wasn't that long but man it was pricey! We bought the medium bag of caramel crisp popcorn and it was 11 bucks. Went home and shared it with my family and my mum kept saying how 11 bucks was expensive because the cost of making popcorn is actually very low. And she proved her point to me by making popcorn today and it was definitely cheaper than 11 bucks. But the popcorn is really addictive! Maybe good to have it once in 2 months? Or even better, make your piping hot popcorn at home! I think it's quite simple!

Oh yes, on a random note, I passed my first math test! Hope this doesn't jinx me or whatever, but check it out! PASSED ON THE DOT. Phew. Hoping for a higher score the next time round.

Went to taste paradise @ Ion for CNY Reunion dinner and had the best sharksfin of my life! Seriously the sharksfin was soooo nice! It's actually their specialty and you're not supposed to add any vinegar or sauce into it as it'll mask the taste of the sharksfin! Yummy... Craving for it now :(

Makeup gao gao

Failed Picnic

Ok here's me in my picnic outfit and the hat which everyone hates but i think is cute

There was much more food than this which I didn't take pics of. And I realised this. Whenever I am super excited bout something, something will go wrong. I was super excited about the picnic the entire week, planning what food to prepare and stuff to bring and TA DAH! Pls refer to pic below.
RAIN RAIN RAIN. That week just seemed to rain non stop! WAZZUP!? Anyway the rain kinda stopped after an hr plus? And we still went ahead to Barrage and when we got out of the station it was pouring like hell. I was famished by then and went back down to the MRT and stuffed my face with chicken and grapes. Talk about being unlucky. And pathetic.
Anyway we did have the picnic in the end... somewhere.

I got a papercut from studying math that night. It sure cut me deep. Hopefully my results won't cut me deeper.

Last but not least! SWIMMANG. Can you believe that on the day it was raining, I went to swim and now I am chao ta bao! Ridiculous right? I'm so tanned I'm close to being a malay! And this happened 2 days before CNY. But good thing is, me and linette discovered that guys like tanned girls... *wink wink*... NOT! But my cousins just complimented me saying I look like I am very sporty when the actual fact is I only swam that one time and became so tan. Thats why they say dont judge a book by its cover...

Anyway I spent close to 1 hr typing + uploading pics and have not started revising for two mid term tests I am having this week. SIGH SIGH SIGH.

Enough about school! Hope everyone had a blasting Rabbit year and all the best to us in 2011 :)

Anyway been wanting to share these frm satc

I love it when she throws the burger!

Ticket to ride

2011-01-26T08:29:00.000-08:00

Its 12.30am and I am extremely tired. Did not attempt any algebra when I got home and I reeeeaaaly wanted to do it cause I was so afraid i would forget what I learnt in class :( Laziness always gets the better of me...

I had a random thought. I should stop being so angsty and be a nice and better person. Less bitching and just being REAL. I guess us being girls always tend to bitch about someone we don't like and I'm just thinking if we stopped bitching what would we even talk about? We bitch about people/boyfriends/parents/life.... Life's a bitch.

I don't like to be angry all the time. I hate to feel sad. Hate to be left out. Hate to always be angry with something/someone. I have aged 10 years just by being angry...

Also, I wanted to say something. Why are some people so competitive when it comes to school work? I mean I admit a little competition pushes you to work harder but the feeling just sucks when someone you know only cares for him or herself and pretends to show concern for u once in awhile when most of the time they were only caring for themselves? The feeling sucks and there's really nothing you can do but just count on yourself and of course, helpful classmates :)

Anyway my life at this pt in time isnt fantastic and I'm really praying hard for changes and that things get better. It's never smooth sailing and the only way to be truly happy is to treasure what I have now and not to be greedy.

Ranting and ranting all day long... tmr's gonna be a looooong day and I'm really dreading it... 8am class and then work from 5-11 :(

Really hating myself now. Gained weight and pimple outbreaks + pimples on my chest. I am feeling extremely ugly at this pt in time! I wanna lose weight so badly for cny but it is so difficult! And i haven been eating much supper so I dont know why this is happening :(

Shall be back soon to blog when I'm not struggling doing math. Goodnight and hello to being late again tmr! Hopefully not...

peaceful luncheon

2011-01-18T02:44:00.000-08:00

Met up with lychee today for some lunch lovin' :)
Brought her to this outlet Lenas that is located at bugis and now we dont have to go all the way there to have lunch because... ITS AT NEX!
Love the atmosphere, the concept of taking your own salad, soup and the other side dishes such as the fruits! Having my usual Mushroom penne which was too creamy this time round! I usually order it cos the cream sauce is very light but o well it still tasted great!
Sat there for a good 3 hrs chatting away and pouring all my sorrows to her regarding certain issues that are bugging me and have been bugging me for some time already. Shall not mention any names.

We always imagine friendship to be something lovely, where friends can enjoy one another's company. But it seems that it has become something very difficult for me and a friend to do so. Arguments time and time again have made me give up and try to make things right. Life's too short. I wish I could just act like I don't care when you give sarcastic comments but the fact is I HAVE REACHED MY LIMIT. It is not that I didn't bother but rather I don't wanna fix it and end up having the same thing happen again.

Anyways it feels good to be back home early for once... Have been either working or going out so its great to just lay in bed and enjoy the afternoon :) Did not complete anything though... was just lazing around, online shopping and checking out clothes! I calculated my expenditure just these two weeks for clothings - 2XX :( THIS IS SO DEPRESSING. CNY really gives u the excuse to SHOP SHOP SHOP AWAY! Really need to work and earn it all back!

O well, its alr the second day of school and already I was late... Class started at 8 and I woke up 7.30 :( Shit happens... And the worse part was I still strolled and even went to buy breakfast! Haha. Shall try to update soon! Back to college algebra now...

POP OH!

2011-01-08T11:15:00.000-08:00

FAV ROASTA BURGER :D

I LOOK PREGNANT AND GROSS URGH

GUESS WHO!

one of the many collages we took that night!

HI... My body clock is so screwed up ever since I started working at uss :( Besides that I had a rude awakening this week (trust me it wasnt good). Which explains why i am having a horrible pimple outbreak :( been spamming tea tree oil on them and it aint working! Having pimples really affects your self confidence... somehow..

I slept from 230am-415am this morning... woke up abit sweaty and sticky and couldn't fall back to sleep so I watched The Wedding Planner till 530am and finally went to bathe at 6am and left the house at 630am in order not to be late to meet ah liang's parents... in the end i was early!
Went for BMT graduation and the place was quite crowded... the scenery was so nice!! and with the morning breeze it was great :) Anyway the whole parade was kinda like boring but I only liked it when they played the army songs cause it was really funny! And the twisted necks while marching... PRICELESS!

Suppose to sit together with lychee in the end haiz did not and when everything ended it was so damn crowded and not to mention, SMELLY. I smelled nothing but sweet and sour pork. Correction, there was nth sweet about the smell of i duno how many army guys who marched the entire night...
I felt super sad cos I saw a few limping and still gotta lug the heavy backpack home :( Ah liang was limping too.. O well army sucks! So 2 months has since passed and it wasn't easy for me when he went to army and I screwed up... It was tough not having him to call or quarrel wif me everyday... only talking to each other on the phone for 10 mins every night and most of the time I did not feel like talking cause I would either be napping or doing my work.. So u can imagine that we kind of lost the closeness we had in the past :(

Alright enough of army... Totally slept the entire day except for the part we went to have KFC for dinner... suppose to go city square mall to eat the cheap italian food!

OK WTF I FORGOT TO MENTION THAT I SAW POKERFACE AGAIN. IN THE BUS. I mean Singapore is so fucking small that I can meet him everywhere... damn sian. Ever since I bumped into him at NEX... Singapore is too damn small and like what are the odds of being on the same bus!? REALLY AT THAT POINT IN TIME I WANTED TO SCREAM FUCK MY LIFE. tried calling lychee like twice and she MIA-ed! shall tell her tmr...

and also I am really depressed that I put on weight! Especially when its nearing towards CNY :( i dont need anymore FAT comments from my relatives...

its alr 4am and i am gonna apply cream on my face and hopefully sleep peacefully without waking till tomorrow...

Cant wait to catch LOVE AND OTHER DRUGS NEXT WEEK WOOHOO haven caught in a movie for like close to a month alr!

CHECK OUT THE TRAILER :D

first day of work

2011-01-04T10:32:00.000-08:00

above pics were taken today during training at Universal Studios! Training was really looong but I had alot of fun with my new found friends! Chatting and laughing with people I've only known for a few hours was really great :D too bad i wont be working with em' tmr as I'll be working the graveyard shift (11PM-8.30AM) NO FUCKING JOKE. Was already half dead after dinner and managed to eat supper before leaving the place at around 1+am :(
Supper was okay though! Char Kway Teow with chicken wing! Sinful but I ish a greedy pigs. I will definitely put on weight working this job cos we hardly do anything and I was stuffing myself silly with gummies and m&m almost the entire day! I felt good though! The cheers is having a promo here, 1 for 1 m&m's! Gonna buy them tmr before work!

Anyway as it was my first day, I was totally unprepared and did not wear the appropriate footwear... Mistook white socks and black socks and I wore pumps instead of covered shoes... I was so sad. The moment I walked into the breakout room these two annoying girls were pointing out that my footwear was wrong. I said sorry to this girl and she freaking told me not to say sorry and that if I were to be sent home its my fault or whatever. I wanted to slap her!! Fucking bitchy face I swear... Ruined the starting hr of my first day of work. Guess there will always be bitchy and assholic people around to screw things up for you.

We spent quite abit of time touring around uss before and after it was close! Haha no one will ever take pic of uss in the dark cos it closes at 7pm and I actually climbed up the castle! I was super interested to find out if the castle had rooms or whatever but we didn't get to see much and it was really dark and creepy! Most of the lights were off and we couldn't see properly...
Really enjoyed the breathtaking view though!

Work now is quite slack now cos the Battlestar Galattica (the ride im working at) isn't open yet but I'm really worried when it does! So many things to remember! Hand signals... controls... radio codes... My brain is fried!

Alrighty have to plan where to buy the stupid covered black shoes and white socks before tt idiotic girl gives me that STARE again. Duno if I will pull her hair/Gorge her eyes out tmr...
JUST KIDDING!

Jogging/Brisk-Walking

2011-01-03T03:51:00.000-08:00

Just got back from 5 rounds of non stop walking/jogging...
Ok technically I only ran the first round and after that I was panting like mad! So freaking unhealthy :( I hate myself for being so lazy but jogging has always been one of my biggest fears! And u know whats the worst part? I gotta jog uphill!
Very sucky.. I felt my legs starting to hurt when I was brisk walking up! But o well its only the first time in like I duno how many years I have put on sport shoes. Running for the bus isn't counted!
Craving for ponggol nasi lemak and green bean soup now :(

Work starts tmr. Am. Not. Excited. At. All.

ciao ciao~

photolog of the month of december

2011-01-02T06:14:00.000-08:00

I have been too busy, or should I say lazy to update this space... so much has happened since I last updated and 2010 has since come to an end. Christmas this year wasn't what I expected with tears and leaving me crying alone in my room and the next day having friends over the next day for potluck party that wasnt such a potluck in the end... but o' well...
I spent the last day of 2010 exploring raffles place, heading down to city hall for some shopping.
It felt good to retail shop but I still prefer shopping online. Lazy lazy.
It's alr closing to 3.45am and I'm half asleep already but I figured I should stop procastinating and do something about my blog so I'll have something to read when I'm older.

It's really unbelievable how fast time flies and how much some things have changed and how some havent. I'm still growing and learning everyday. I'm still experimenting with life. I'm still young and childish. But all these are just the part and parcel of growing up aint it? Mistakes are made and lessons are learnt. 2010 marked a new beginning for me. I was unsure of the path I would take after I graduated and by God's grace I was accepted into University and I'm enjoying every part of it although I get complacent at times. Schooling will always be easier than working anytime! Its crazy to think I'm gonna turn 21 this year! :(
2010 meant changing jobs. From Mandarin Gallery to MOM to quitting Sgpools and starting my new job at Universal Studios on Tues. (Kinda dreading it though)
2010 was the year I went overseas with my friends and boyfriend for the first time and i enjoyed every bit of it!
2010 meant learning how tough it was to live without someone when he went to serve national service.

Am crossing my fingers and hoping for even better things to come along my way in 2011! Not going to do the resolutions because I know I won't fulfill them. But I do hope that I become a better friend, a better daughter and a better person as a whole. Less of me and more for others.

Here's wishing everyone a happy and fruitful 2011 ahead! :)

screwed up

2010-12-08T09:48:00.000-08:00

am really lazy to blog these days...
and ever since i got my iphone it gets really unnecessary to blog cos facebook has most of the updates!
haveee soooo much to say but my mind is currently blank! :(
finally went out with lychee after she came back frm bkk ystd~ finally went NEX and ate there! i freaking went there wif liang last sat and ended up eating macs @ srgn central cos the place was so damn packed! i couldnt even walk properly cos there were people everywhere! ARGH! i dun even know where all these freaking people come from! and their everywhere~~~ ended up eating at food junction cos everywhere else was crazy crowded and it was still kinda crowded but thankfully we found a cosy corner to eat!
i totally got cheated by the stupid uncle whom i bought noodles from... loooong story~ so many freaking cheats these days.. sigh why cant anyone be honest and nice? issit so hard... always wanting to cheat someone's money blah... sick of this shit
i had fun though! catching up and camwhoring and totally being laughed @ by this sickening group of people... its just taking pictures what... as if u guys never do it before!

had sogurt and then went to try this bubble tea store in the basement...
its called : DRINK TEA? dumb name
anw it SUCKS!!! like really bad diluted milk tea... i was telling lychee nothing compares to KOI really... even gong cha doesnt match up to them... KOI'S the best!! jus wish the queues wouldnt be so looooong :(

its going to 2am and i have class at 3.30 tmr argh so annoying h8 school
but this is much better than having 8am classes from mon-fri !!! am so glad tt is over!

P.S i jus ate like 3 slices of pizza cos i was so hungry :( am feeling guilty now... SUPPER misses me and vice versa

spore flyer and random updates

2010-11-09T06:02:00.000-08:00

a soccer field in the middle of the marina bay area.. what happens if the ball gets kicked out!lame concept~
have been so damn lazy to do anything lately.. i dont do my school work, i dont blog i jus wanna sleep all day and have fun.. totally cant succeed in life this way.
I feel that its such a chore to even get up in the morning and my back has been hurting like a bitch when i wake up! is this a sign that i have osteoporosis or something

finally went to spore flyer after that failed attempt and bevee gave me the 1 for 1 tickets to go before ah liang went to the army.. thanks bevee!! was super excited when i got there and the view was really nice... shld have gone in the night though but then i wouldnt have been able to take these pics cos my cam totally cant take pics in the dark cause the flash is spoilt.

can't wait for the 3 weeks break after this cause i really need my beauty sleep.. this is by far the worse sem-- 8am really can kill. i hate waking at up 6+am everyday the feeling really sucks and the train rides cant get any worse than this

I realized ive been complaining alot - about food, school work and everything.. cranky lately.. :(

today marked the day ah liang went to army and i did not even go to tekong with him cause I had the stupid quiz which I couldnt afford to miss. I thought that if his family went with him i didnt have to go and I felt really bad... studies come first.. and he called me just now for 5 pathetic mins and has not replied my msges.. guess he went to sleep.. poor ah liang!

haiz ok im going to do some work now bye hate my life

GUESS WHO!!!

happy day

2010-10-19T08:38:00.000-07:00

closing into 12 midnight alr and i just woke from my nap bout an hour ago...
i was so freaking tired the entire day :( finally managed to get shut eye but everyone in my family was making damn alot of noise. stupid sis was eating and totally banging her fork and spoon in her bowls which ANNOYED me.. dammit. i could totally hear it from my room.

been sneezing since i got up wonder if it means someone is bitching bout me. oh well!

anyway i really hit jackpot today! a bird SHITTED ON ME while i was waiting to cross the road in the morning and thank goodness cheryl told me when she came to class or else i would be walking around the whole day with bird shit in my hair :(
but amazingly, this is the first time in my 20 years that i kena bird shit! i was asking the rest and they have been shitted on more than once! HAHA. ok better shut that mouth of mine before the same bird decides to gimme his chocolate cake again tmr morning.

seriously this 8am shit is doing nothing for me at all. i come back from school and i do anything but my work and i srsly motherfucking hate to take the train during peak hours!!! I CANT EXPLAIN HOW MUCH I DETEST TAKING PUBLIC TRANSPORT NOWADAYS. some freaking china woman was totally squeezing her way into the mrt now and didnt give a shit bout poor me standing behind her BUNNED HEAD. F U! wait for the next one will die?

ystd was prolly one of the happiest days for me :)
had a good lunch and then liangy and i went to TIFFANY tgt to buy a necklace :)
i was grinning from ear to ear cos i have been wanting it for a really long time but i never got around to buying it so im glad we did... thanks fatass... u really made my day by coming down to nlb to wait for me, eating lunch and sending me all the way back even though i know how much u hate to walk in... anw fatass is going into army soon and that is why he is being extremely nice to me now... HAHAHA.

alright, i have some stupid english assignment to do and i shld get started :(

piccas below

ever since i ate this with gong zhu its the only thing now i eat when i go to that place... super light cream based penne. even though its just with mushrooms but it jus tastes damn good!!

ok gearing myself for yet another lesson tmr... :(

good things never last

2010-10-16T08:09:00.000-07:00

Greetings from mr FATASS

NI HAO

Pardon my facial expression - was chewing pearls halfway

i finally got a haircut! cut off 1 inch only but it looks kinda short alr right? i feel like cutting it even shorter but nah!

went to the Singapore Flyer ystd and walked all the way there only to find out that the student 10 dollar promo is no longer on... no way am i gonna pay 29.50 to go up there for half and hour!!
other than that, i had a greaaat dayyyy! :)
the sun was scorching and i walked around the entire day with my umbrelly... srsly it is HOT. like i can get a tan just walking around and i was sweating in my looooong skirt!
went to eat the new KFC meal and surprisingly its kinda nice! the chicken in the burger was thick and the tomatoes and salad was good! i usually hate KFC.
sigh it is already saturday and my nightmare officially begins on monday as my school timetable has freaking changed to starting @ 8am everyday. :'(
but i guess thats good cos i can go home and sleep after school everyday!

this holiday was good while it lasted but now that its ending its really depressing...

KAIXUAN - my eyes are POPPING OUT!

CLASS PIC OF REBEL 12!
AUDREY! SERENA - bonito chiongster... she was wearing the top from the recent launch!

First class gethering with REBEL 12! reached kinda late cause i was feeling lazy to leave the house!
went to crystal jade for xiao long baos and la mian...
i didnt really enjoy the food cause i wasnt super hungry (have been eating lunch really late the entire week- 4 or 5pm lunch!) and the la mian was too thick and the soup was bland...
there's a restaurant at city square mall where i ate with eu the other time and it was really good! the soup was nice, noodles were springy and BEST! gave lots of dumplings! their desert was really nice as well.. slurps slurps.. may pop by tmr and maybe eat it!
alright, i have been eating too much for my own good. i ransacked my kitchen cupboard @ 1+am last night and couldnt find my maggi mee! apparently my dad didnt buy any and i finally found beef maggi - u know the kind that has really fat noodles? like korean maggi mee type of noodles and i disgustingly boiled water and cooked it! thats not all folks, i even ate marks and spencer chocolate wafer biscuits after that!!!! :( been a long time since i felt THIS guilty for snacking but i was HUNG-ERY. :(

GOODABYE~~~

closer to the edge

2010-10-13T10:54:00.000-07:00

GREETINGS FROM MISS FAT FACE!
as u can tell, the 2 kilos has officially gone to my face...
and did i mention? I AM THE NEW SPOKESPERSON FOR SEASONS "ice lemon green tea"
eu introduced it to me and its nice!!

HAI HAI TO BESTIE!

nice purper shirt u have there :)

we painted our nails the same shade!!! TOTALLY COINCIDENTAL!!

So anyways I finally met up with my bestie and finally got to sit in her car and got driven around by her! whee its super fun although she scares me by driving too fast sometimes. i look out for her and stuff and she enjoys driving me around right! i think id be a good driver too but im too lazy to take my license and the tests and all.. maybe soon aye!!
so we spent a crazy day running all over the place... first to nyp, then to town and then tried to rush back for our pizza hut set lunches but it was too late by then. sigh sigh. i didnt eat anything the entire day and was dragged around by her. wobbly knees and all!
we finally drove down to gardens to eat pow sing where i disgustingly ate * bowls of rice. the amt is censored as i am too shocked by my appetite. but c'mon man! i was STARVING!!! we ate half a chicken and drank 1 and a half bowls of soup! fulfilling though!
went back to her house after that and stayed all the way till the wee hours of the morning (not forgetting how much i was screwed over that) watching "You're Beautiful" whilst snacking on sliced cheese, KoKoCrunch and disgustingly ate KFC tgt. i had fun though! and finally dozed off at close to 5am.
met up with her again tdy to satisfy our pizza + garlic clam broth soup and yet another hour of "You're Beautiful".

A RANDOM WEEKEND
which involved meatballs,chicken wings... all the sinful stuff and a 1 hr bus ride
the next time u pass by MBS, just stop and look up for awhile... you'll be able to see camera lights flashing almost every second... sigh i would really wanna book a room and stay in there and swim in the infinity pool!

passed the ol' workplace...

is this the flats called "The PEAK"?
very nicely designed :) love the concept!

KOI queues never fail to amaze me...

Have you ever seen a faker smile? bleah!!

the so called mole right smack in the middle of my forehead aint disappearing yo!

YUM TUM TUM! dont u wish u had these to eat now? HEHE.

gluttony gets u nowhere...

i thought i look like a small girl here!

that just about sums up the past few weeks and days. i am sunburnt cause i went swimming (EXERCISE YAY) The pain on my shoulders is a NAY though. and my face is peeling like nobody's business and i think i have a high chance of contracting skin cancer as i totally did not even apply a single drop of sunblock as i couldnt find it :(
Singapore weather really sucks these days. it is soooo humid... speechless.. i have to bring out an umbrella all the time... it rained before i slept last night though which made my sleep a really pleasant one.

Had a slice of pizza and garlic bread with my sissy just now and we were just chatting about friends and how everything changes, and I'm really glad that we have each other to talk about it with. I will try to be a better sister to you stephy... thanks for ur advice and even though u hate watching my dumb videos, you still will be the only one i can trust fully and share my secrets with. Thanks for being there! :)
With this I shall end this post...
Really dreading school next week as I have no urge whatsoever to start studying... this 1 week holiday is really too short.. sigh sigh.

Till the next time,
xxxx

damn it.

2010-09-26T01:25:00.000-07:00

studying for art test now. AGAIN. every freaking weekend is spent studying!! :( i wish i can just not give a flying hoot about my work but i cant.
anws i went to work ystd and after work went down with jessie and her friend to the reebonz event @ expo hall. it was ... faints! i saw something i almost bought but i let it go.... sigh sigh. saving up man!
anyhows, i have been feeling rather "heavier" for the past couple of weeks and I decided to weigh myself (this happened about 5 mins ago) and DAMMIT. i put on 2 kilos. WTF. how the hell did tt happen!?! supper supper supper, not only does it kill you, it makes u fatter and fatter. and plus the freaking KOI pearls i have been eating... why am i not surprised... :(
this sucks. really. i gotta shed that 2 kilos but im so damn lazy :( plus all these tests stress is just making me consume more and more each time!

anyway my eye has offically kena infection for the thousandth time this year. there seems to be something stuck on my lens that i cant wash off and when I do wear it, it starts getting red and uncomfortable. when i woke up this morning there was alot of eyeshit man. sigh sigh.

i cant wait for my holidays coming up in abt 2 weeks!! i am gonna go shopping and meetup with the people i miss!!! school is robbing everyone of their social lives.

alright back to... whats his name!?! jacques louis david... lovesloves ancient greek man. not.

jar of hearts

2010-09-20T11:23:00.000-07:00

its only monday. i had a terrible monday. i cried. alot.
i duno how i got caught in this web that i just couldnt get out of no matter how i tried. I got tangled, messed up in this cobweb of shit. a fucking piece of web that lasted for 3 whole fucking years of my life. it is horrible i really dont know how to explain how I am feeling except this is a new low for me.

above pics were taken ystd when we attended my auntie's wedding
the wedding itself was bad... small small conference room, service... quite bad
the poor waiter was sweating, he was attending to 5 tables by himself.
the chocolates were really nice though!!! i took some but forgot to bring em' home :( SOBS
now that i am depressed where is the chocs... :'(

alrighty i will probably have no life after this. essay project every shit seems to be due this week, if not next week. oh yes! CONGRATS. ANOTHER FREAKING ART TEST NXT MON. F THIS SHIT.

been staring at my com since 10pm and i haven gotten down to doing anything...
haven started on my reflection, haven started studying for wed's test, haven finished my essay outline. Nothing. ....

speaking of sucky, i think i have put on like a few kilos... i feel bloated, swollen and ugly.
oh yes! i have 4 pimples growing on my forehead now too :(

hopefully the next time u read my blog it'll be a happier post...

i could fly from the highest swing

2010-09-15T12:09:00.000-07:00

i am so lazy to even update this blog...
school's been a real bitch!!!! i h8 it!!
every after day - readings, projects, research, TESTS! repeat cycle.
irritating... if i have to go out i'll have to think twice, if not i'll have this annoying feeling @ the back of my mind telling me that i have stuff undone...
i went back to carrefour today and took yet another HUGGIES~ pic! hehe cos im chubby like that! had a really filling dinner @ indulgz! steak man! but the servings for my appetizers was pathetic! two prawns and two spring rolls!??!! CHEAT MA MONEY.

anw the most fucked up thing happened
i was supposed to go peace centre to collect my specs after school and i didnt wanna take a train to dhoby cos i was lazy and didnt wanna walk and i knew 131 and 857 went there so i was waiting at the bustop opposite raffles city... 857 would pass peace centre so when i saw 131 i immediately hopped on! cos if 857 would pass then 131 would pass peace centre too right!?!? WTF. i was SO DAMN WRONG. it started passing suntec and then it started going towards fullerton hotel?! i was like WHERE THE HELL IS THIS BUS GOING... i ran to the front to ask the driver if the bus was gg towards peace centre and he said NO! i got off @ the next stop and i was lost like a birdie~~~ HAD TO WALK ALL THE WAY TO RAFFLES PLACE MRT AND TAKE SOME FUCKED UP NTUC UNDERPASS ROUTE WHICH MADE ME WALK A REALLY NONG DISTANCE. pardon me but im still fuming from my OWN STUPIDITY.

wasted my damn time and money. in the end still go dhoby ghaut and walk all the way. AND MERRY XMAS TO ME!!! THE FUCKING SPECTACLE SHOP WAS CLOSED. C-L-O-S-E-D.
F THE CHINA WOMAN WHO CALLED ME!!! she freaking told me it would close BA DIAN DUO. BA DIAN WO DE PI GU. tmr if i go there I AM GONNA F HER!!! (in a nice way of course)
IRRITATING. make me eat DINNER SO LATE.. SWEAT LIKE A PIG..... CURSED LIKE A MAD WOMAN... haiz. ALL BECAUSE I HAD TO GEH KIANG HOP ONTO THE BUS.

OH YES! I FINALLY GOT MY TERTIARY CARD. and its damn UGLY. but who cares right! FINALLY NO MORE DISTANCE CRAP FARES AND BACK TO 4 MRT RIDES!!!!

its 3.30am and I AM STILL AWAKE. supposed to be studying for ART BUT REALLY I GIVE UP. sorry bout the caps. i was studying alone downstairs and i felt uncomfortable... the paintings scared me!!!

cant wait for friday.... need a break from school...... DAMN. bye!

a rocket to the moon

2010-09-06T22:04:00.000-07:00

hihi... have not been updating even though i have had plenty of time online and stuff. nothing much to blog about anyway! just that school is taking a toll on everyone! every module has something to do! for my eng module, i have to do the outline of my essay and i have not written a single word - its due TMR. and i had an art test today and i studied like shiat for it trying to cramp all the stupid painters and their famous paintings into my brain and the test only covered 2 questions outta that!

after school i went to have mac breakkie with gong zhu and i just got home
have to chiong the outline thingy now and get ready to head out in the night for movie and timbre :)

anw im kinda getting used to not wearing eyeliner to school! look at the webcam pic! i look the same! and my double eyelids are appearing!! HEHE!!!
bye!

a dream of you and me

2010-08-31T09:42:00.000-07:00

hellooooooo~~
2nd week of school and I am still unmotivated :(
what is wrong with meeee! sigh i had a totally different image of uni...
i must stop thinking this is rp and stop day dreaming!!
gong zhu and i are like floating in class all day long~

im staring at my notes now and its 12:46am.

say hi to another wednesday

anyway the weekend was crazy with cheryl's 21st bday party!
hope she uploads the pics asap so i can post them up here :)

ok what a lame post really im just bored and my life sucks...

2nd day.

2010-08-24T09:48:00.001-07:00

its the 2nd day of school today. My class has 48 people. We had english composition module today. i sound so mono right... cause i am feeling extremely mono + tired.
Its 1am and i should really be sleeping now but i cant! theres so many things i wanna do and the fact that school starts at 3 tmr means i get to sleep in later! yay to starting at 3 but boo to ending at 6+. shitty timing really. I had to squeeze my way into the train just now cos it sucks to go home during peak hour. HATE HATE HATE to go home during peak periods.

went for lunch with gong zhu ystd cos class ended at 10am and we apparently left the library without our knowing (lame story) and made our way back aft touring bugis junction for approximately 20 mins. Had lunch at this restaurant called lenas? its the path along to the national library and the restaurant is located next to fish&co. wanted to eat swensens 1 for 1 but ended up having this instead cos swensens 1 for 1 doesnt have soup or drinks! how sucky is that!! anw the meal turned out to be pleasantly nice! we were able to have our own salads, soup, garlic bread and i ate hell alot... till my tummy felt queasy!

i realise that i am actually quite the veggie person! i was watching sex and the city and they were always eating salads during breakfast/lunch blah and i think i could do it too! smoked salmon salad for meals doesnt sound too bad.. but nahhhh!! im too much of a carbo person to try that! RICE AND NOODLES ARE MA BEST FRIENDS. which explains why they have become part of my MASS. HAHA.

pasta, mashed potatoes, hard boiled eggs, fruits and all stuffed into one teeny bowl. SUCKAS! my spaghetti looks nice but actually sucked... the sauce was FREAKING THICK. gong zhu's one was pleasantly nice! iced tea was nice but only cos we added two cups of syrup to em ;)

we had art ystd. i really dont understand why are we taking art!?! it is LAME ASS. my lecturer says that everything is inter related and that we will understand why soon... i doubt i can ever understand it... art was never my friend... i duno why the words here are underlined..

anyway i have assignments to do already. i can jolly well kiss the lifestyle i am leading now away!
i guess im still abit in the holiday mood... i still can come home, switch on my com, surf fb, blog, watch sex and the city and feel good about it! i shld be doing my work! sigh. guess i will wake up soon when the tests hits me in about a week. good luck to me then!

on a side note, i wanted to get KOI aft schl tdy and the queue was motherfucking long. wtf is up with people these days!! pissed... i couldnt be bothered to wait half n hr for a cup of milk tea so i left. lamez...

bye bye.

school starts tomorrow :(

2010-08-22T06:20:00.000-07:00

yay im back to blog bout the past week... been tryna go out as much as i can before school starts and managed to go back to my old workplace to return my uniform, meetup with the big bullies, and even went for bonito's 4th birthday bash! i was too lazy to categorize the events and talk about them one by one but bonito's birthday bash was freaking madness! queued up for close to 1 and a half hours before we got into zirca to see the fashion show and didnt manage to win anything cause i printed our tickets so small! :( if i had known they would choose those big big tickets, i would have asked my sis to mega upsize the pics and print them out!! but anw the goodie bag was nice! and the clothes were nice too!

went down to celebrate my grandma's birthday at taka after that and snapped a few pics! she turns 75!! thanks for being the greatest grandma love chu! :)

aiya i had so many things to blog about but now my mind is blank cos im busy wondering what to pack for school tmr! and it frigging starts at 8am. FUCK THIS SHIT. and it ends at 11.15. how lame right. i think im going straight back to home to sleep cos i will for sure be freaking tired!

and i have to bring my laptop and textbook to school everyday!! how sucky is that!! :(:(
ok wish me luck tmr... byebye

my new obsession : Snails

2010-08-17T10:34:00.000-07:00

life's been good. I get to sleep at any time i like, and i wake up any time i like. I watch shows all day long, cuddle with my bolster and spend loads of quality time with my.... bed.
sounds sad and pathetic. I spent almost the entire day with my bestie yesterday. We had 2 packets of yakult, a bag of chips and lotsa laughter! Was looking through her entire of neoprint collections and we had a frigging good laugh over how we looked like last time! I was telling her how I'm so glad we're still best friends :) you know i love you!!! since secondary 1!! and i was so damn thin last time. LOOK AT ME NOW. FML BIG TIME.
i know i promised i wouldnt post this pic, but its blurred! u can hardly see anything! this was taken in sec 1 i think, when my wall was painted with hearts still! *memories...*

left her place around 12 plus... she was supposed to drive me back! in the end my dad came to pick me cos he was worried bout me and stuff. Lame!! I will nver ever get to sit in her car or see her drive ever!

Had alone time today again. I kept on thinking and thinking. Pondering, wondering. Whatever. That it was time I let go. We all wanna feel important. And right now I guess I'm just nothing. I feel empty. I'm not afraid to admit that I am lonely. This sucks and i feel shitty. But! Life goes on.

chin up! (yeah i know how lame right comforting myself on my own blog)
:)
bev and i have this crazy idea of getting up at 730am to have breakfast at kovan... i wonder if i can even get up!!

oh yes, regarding my post title, I HAVE A CONFESSION TO MAKE. only two people know bout my sick habit but since im blogging bout it now i guess the secrets out of the bag. I am currently too bored with my life that ive taken up a new habit of killing snails in my backyard. It is fun i tell you! All i do is sprinkle salt on them and they die instantly. I kill the small ones and i especially like the BIG ones. Like they're so freaking gross. They'll be stuck on the fence so i'll jus sprinkle the salt and they will fall off instantly and die. Who knew salt had so many uses! EEW. just check out the pic of the damn snail... just looking at it makes the hair on my back stand. alright, enough bout snails. Back to shows!

friday the 13th

2010-08-14T22:03:00.000-07:00

they were super sweet to get me a card and a perfume from lanvin :) super touched...
they decorated the card so nicely...

award ceremony... HAHA

me with irritating jason! loves my face here haha!

nakib!! the person who laughs super loud at my jokes!

umeer! my manager and the person who interviewed me for the job..

super fun bunch of people!

aww gonna miss all of you!

me and ah pao!
zaimeen! joker!!

auntie ivy! she is the nicest auntie of all! always buying breakfast for me! gonna miss her :(

yesterday marked the last day of my job in MOM. Bittersweet memories working there. Bitter cause of the customers we face each and every single day. Be it china workers, singaporeans, runaway maids... i think i really met alot of new people and seen all sorts of people! Seeing police officers handcuff people infront of me... new things and lots of exposure of being in the frontline. With every job I take on, I learn something new and I am glad that i've been given the opportunity to do that. Even though I was working there for 6 weeks, I met so many new people and made new friends. The job scope sucked but the people made it fun! We spent most of the time cracking jokes and making fun of the people we see and complaining about difficult customers! sigh will miss working there fer sure even though it was tiring and had sucky timing! reporting to work at 750 everyday... and ending at 5.30pm.

Went for my farewell lunch with 3 of my colleagues at Manhatten Fish Market and they gave me a treat! Thanks ah pao, jason and JP! they were really sweet and we had so much to eat! Too much fried fish can make u feel nauseous though! The oysters were nice though!

When work was ending, suddenly they came with another surprise and it was the card and gift! i actually laughed till i teared whilst reading the card cos I was really touched and was really thankful for the colleagues there... cracking jokes, slacking, mostly complaining bout the standing! Really wish them all the best!

Anyways enough bout farewells! I went out to meet lychee after work! Been a long time since only both of us went out! and i wanted to go vivo cos i hadnt been there in a long long time! i think its almost been close to 6 months? Since that time we went for the school trip to the National Geographic Place u know! MEMORIES~~

Had the suckiest dinner at RAMEN TEN! gave us dates that looked like poo! i duno why they even gave that to us! it was dried... and unappetizing.. potato salad was so-so. The fried scallop wasnt fantastic... Ramen like maggi mee... green tea no taste.. they werent kidding when they said japanese green tea... bleah! never.ever.going.back.there.

We went to buy sushi after that and chit chatted by the sea! and then free fireworks! It was nice! we should meet more often DEARSHDE!! and my stupid ez link expired ystd. I went to claim the remaining money inside today.

My entire saturday was ruined. I do not wanna elaborate much cos I am too tired and sad to pen down what happened. Is it really time I learn to be independent and really move on once and for all? I dont even know what is holding me back... WHAT IS?

sigh bye. Back to sex and the city!

Perfect

2010-08-08T05:34:00.000-07:00

life has been the same... i go to work at 740am everyday, end work at 530... talk to my colleagues.... go home sleep... eat... watch sex and the city...
i am oh-so-boring i know! i gotta stop being like this! but i am just too lazy to go out and enjoy myself! i cant even rmb the last time i had a shopping spree or went out for the entire day... is this how my life is gonna be when im in my twentys? thirties?? sigh sigh!

anyway my last day of work is this FRIDAY!! spreading my joy with the world!!! i duno why this 1 and half months seems like an eternity! i feel like i have been working for many many moons..

about time i stayed home and enjoyed life! laze in bed... wake up at any damn time i want!
so many things to be done... uni stuff still not fully settled. have another orientation to attend next week! wtf... how many orientations must we have! as if one isnt enough!

i went to IKEA on sunday to have meatballs and chicken wings again :)
it was motherf crowded! no seats available! took about 5,10 mins to find a seat and the table was so filled with dirty plates that we had to clear ourselves... went to redhill after that to visit liang's grandma which i have never seen before and i must say she is extremely different from the grandma he stays with... we stayed for awhile, i played with fishes (more like they were tryna bite my head off from outside the tank) and ate kiwi ice cream with 7-Up (weird combi but tasted alright)

oh yes before i forget! i went to kim robinsons, gong zhu's workplace to have my hair done!! highlighting! i thought she was just gonna highlight it but turns out she did the colour base for my hair. as u know i dyed my hair black before, so it was impossible for any colour to penetrate through, and my hair was in chunks of black and brown... it was gross. so i had my highlights done by bleaching... which i kinda regret.. cos now my hair is extremely damaged :( what to do! who ask me itchy fingers go dye my hair black! LAST TIME IM GONNA DO A SILLY THING LIKE THAT! anyway my hair took a long time to complete. i went in at 7pm... came out only at 10 plus? Thanks gong zhu for staying with me throughout and i had a nice pleasant experience there! plus new look for myself! can u believe i have never highlighted my hair before? its ash brown now with blonde highlights? its not really obvious but i feel its fine!

shld be scooting off now. zai ni de jian!

nothing to lose but everything to gain

2010-08-01T06:49:00.000-07:00

Hihi from outerspace... finally i am at home!!! feels freaking good to be home! i haven had a decent day to rest since i started working... like a marathon that I have been running for a long time... my precious weekends and weekdays are dedicated to working, working, working. I wish I didnt have to work... but as what my colleague said : Life is Singapore is such that you need to work... how true and how sad :(

i took a days leave this week to go for orientation camp for uni! generally the people were nice and we played the normal camp games and stuff... nothing exciting except that the food was good and that we had breezer to drink at the end of the day! gong zhu and i are were dead tired by the time everything ended! took the shuttle bus back to db and went home in my cui shirt and shorts... and the worst thing was it was raining all day and we had to play the games in the rain.. dont fall sick also fall sick!!!

i had to go for orientation day 2 ystd at the national library and collected my timetable and stuff.. the schedule seemed fine though! 3 hr lessons i cant rmb much but gong zhu and i are in the same class!!! WHEE~~~ she will bug me to go out wif her everyday after school... :( HAHAHAHA KIDDING! and we will have to go las vegas for 3 weeks for the immersion programme which costs 5-8k. F OUR LIVES. Worst part is that its compulsory!

there was another orientation programme today but i skipped it... i just slept the whole day, slacked and watched sex and the city. And i went out to thomson LONGHOUSE for dinner with my grandparents... and yes my friends hate me cos i didnt meet up with them today... the weather was so shiok and i was too lazy to get out of bed... they will forgive me eventually i know! HEHE!

goodnight here... not sure whens the next update but hope it will be soon once i get hold of more pics! 2 more weeks to the end of work!!! WOOHOO! countdown starts now!

be glad of life

2010-07-19T06:54:00.001-07:00

just a short random update since i have nothing to do now and for once am back home early at 6pm... work today was horrid. they changed the whole system again and it was chaotic and i had to stand on my feet all day :( and still not getting good vibes from bleah... pui

was having major monday blues during lunch and i lost my appetite and started tearing... i miss all my poly friends... wish u guys were working with me! was looking at the polaroid and wondering how fun it would be if u guys were here! i miss school with everyone around :(

i jus had a major roach killing spree in my backyard, must have killed at least 4 big cockroaches and used up a whole huge bottle of shieldtox which i feel very bad about!! but srsly!! there were soooooo many of them and my hair was still standing cos i could hear them rustling through the leafs after getting a taste of the mighty shieldtox! need to stock up on shieldtox man! BEST!!!

sigh depressing tues tmr. i wanna sleep by 11pm tonight... hope i'll be able to watch inception tmr...

bye for now...

sad ;

hai

2010-07-18T00:21:00.000-07:00

i am so glad weekends are here... this means = REST!!!
work is better nowadays and if uve been following, you would notice that i actually deleted my blog post pertaining to my ********* cos i think i shld jus forget about the whole thing and do my own things at work :)

i went to town ystd... not a big fan of going to town actually. the only reason i went to town was bcos i wanted to watch "inception" and it seems that the show is too freaking good till all the movie timings were taken up all the way to the late late timings!! pissed off !!! :( wanted to watch toy story 3 but there were totally no seats available! sigh got into a fight with liang cos he blamed me for shopping at ion for too long and if we had went to cine earlier we would be able to buy the tickets! which i highly doubt so cos there were too many people watching already! hate to watch movies during the weekends...

and i had incredibly salty ramen at a jap restaurant at ion... it was horrid! and it wasnt even ramen noodles.. it was yellow mee! dont think i am ever going back there again. ippudo is much better! at least the noodles arent yellow and the soup is much nicer even though its salty!

went down to MBS again cos i thought id show fatass around since he hadnt be there before but he was clearly not interested to see the MBS or any new infrastructure in Spore... so many places i wanna go like RWS... but no chance at all.. h8 my life.

srsly need to stop pigging out and starve myself... im looking rounder and rounder and i am speechless abt liangs body... too round alr!!!

i m going to do laundry and watch some tv now. the weather is waaaayyyy too good!
ciao ciao ciao ciao

ashes and wine

2010-07-12T06:55:00.000-07:00

celebrate my grandad's 79th bday at a restaurant at marina bay sands on saturday! i have been working for 8 days in a row but amazingly, im not that tired yet. but i can feel slightly more grouchy than usual with all the pesky customers coming in on a rowdy monday...

anw i was planning to upload the album onto fb but fb seems to be lagging big time! i selected so many pics and it just hung there.. freaking waste of my time!!!

marina bay sands was amazing though! the casinos? i mean it was crazy! like madness. there were so many people... it was a little frightening knowing how many people were going there to gamble away their hard earned money... *sigh*

my uncle as usual over ordered. he ordered double portions. and the food was damn salty that night... so they had no choice but to da pao the food back.

im so depressed i have put on weight in just a short span of 1 week. all that binge eating - breakfast,lunch,dinner supper and all those polar curry puffs, bak kut teh and sitting down! why am i not surprised i am a little rounder... grrr. i think i put on 2 kilos alr. can u imagine!?!? 1 week = 2 kg. 1 month = 8kg. DAMN.

its 1030 and i feel like sleeping soon. nothing to do also. sian. byebye

Love the way you lie

2010-07-08T07:39:00.000-07:00

Status : Hating my life. I think I have put on weight thanks to pigging out so much this week. I eat 4 meals a day. Breakfast, lunch, dinner and supper. Work isnt as tough as it was but srsly all this waking up at 630am shit is tiring the crap out of me. My face is rough and dry and my eyebags are comparable to a panda's. I cant even be bothered to draw my eyeliner in the morning and I totally slept at the back of the my dads car on the way to work cos I am just too tired... :(

This week was Fatass's 20th bday. Managed to arrange with his friends to celebrate his bday with them. Reserved tables at timbre and bought him a simple cake which I felt sucked! But everyone ate it up so thank you guys!

below are just few of the pics taken that day... i was so freaking drained when I reached home that day...

his idiotic friends making fun of my card!!! they all kept tryna read it... *SHY ME*
Hi FATTY BOM BOM. LOVE CHU!!!

Worklife sucks.... I feel that no one really likes me. You know that kinda feeling u get when u just get the vibes from others? Yeah... i feel like that. If liangy wasnt working I would be a total loner. But some of the people working there are really friendly and nice. Quite alot of aunties working there...

Lunch time... had super expensive lunch today. And after the training course I went to pig out on Bak Kut Teh. And wtf? That Song He Bak Kut Teh is ridiculous.. Imagine charging 50 cents more just to eat in the airconditioned place... totally lame...

i look chubby :(
asshole has been betting soccer non stop. and ystd lost again cos he bought germany!!! anw my dad just told me something funny. Because you know the sotong "Paul" is from germany, and because he chose Spain to win, the germans are now gonna make sotong balls of it... POOR PAUL. oh well, you were useful while it lasted.

I went to eat at the place.... Cant recall the name... it was nice though! herbal chicken soup and free flow of ice cream and soft drinks and other stuff...

a dog eating a bone.

look at my eyebags... i hate my face now. really.

before i end this post, i just wanted to say that all day long when i work all i smell is really bad stenches from the construction workers and china workers... i mean... sigh i feel quite sad for the foreign workers cause some of them are really ill treated by their employers and they have no choice but to seek help from MOM... whether or not they get help is another thing la...

goodanight. its closing in to 11 alr and i am as stoned as a duck. and my cough still hasnt gone away.... some girl was saying its a 100 day cough... yeah cough until i vomited last night after speaking to lychee on the fone! too enthu already!!!

i miss them alot alot!!!!! :( byebye and TGIF TMR!!!!!!!!!!!!! hope nth fucks up tmr at work or really FML on a friday.

tired tired tired

2010-07-03T05:31:00.000-07:00

started my new job on thursday and i didnt even do much but i am so tired...
really like i come home from work and sleep.... for a few hours straight!
i guess its cause i start work at freaking 8 am... which means i gotta get up by 6.15 am (fml, really)
MOM is really a different working environment... i cant slack much really. and i feel so alone! :(
the stupid guy placed me at the info counter which has a string line of customers and the queue never gets shorter, it just gets longer... and i hate the fact that i gotta wear the fugly orange shirt... anyway the thought of school starting in aug is just making me all scared and jittery... linette and cindy's starting school next week!!! :(
haiz the fun had to end somewhere right.

anw im gna eat my pizza now...
zai jian le...

signing off...

parachute

2010-06-22T10:59:00.000-07:00

i officially have demoted myself to having zero life!
my schedule is like 4-10pm which sucks like hell really~
when everyone ends work, i start work and by the time i end work... i can only go home :(
but working at hougang branch is super slack i must say! i prefer it to pomo anytime! pomo im like so stressed and stuff...
anyways i took these pics before gg to work tdy and i tried taking the pics while the fan was blowing my hair! hehe how did they turn out!!

i think the last pic is retarded and my hair looks dreamy~~ cos its blur! LAME RIGHT.
anyway i am super in love the nooooosee! i can just talk about the show the whole day because i am lame like that! and stupid linette refuses to let me talk about it during work cos she didnt watch it and doesnt know anything! same goes with the annoying orange! i wanna be the annoying orange! hey WAZZUP!!!!

i think i have put on weight le sigh. eating supper everyday is doing me no good! but i duno why i feel hungry whenever work ends!

this is an irrelevant blog entry i jus wanted to keep it alive and kicking before i lose the blogging spark.

and this month alone, i have spent more than 200 on shopping. i hate myself. really. bye bye.

everything summed into an entry

2010-06-20T10:04:00.000-07:00

i have been too lazy and tired to even keep this space going
been working for the past 7 days and even though i wouldnt say i am super drained, but its been quite the week. starting at 8am everyday and ending at 4pm... i always fall asleep during work! especially after lunch! and the calls just keep on coming in... hardly have time to even chit chat!

came back from bkk on sunday and the next day start work at 8am! how great right? i was really like half dead on monday! btw bkk was alright! was expecting to do much more shopping but i didnt really buy much stuff except accessories! rings, bangles, chains and stuff. the stuff wasnt dirt cheap but this time round i guess we got to explore more! must go places are the usual : chatuchak - which i only spent 3 hrs in due to immense heat and the amt of people there. If i had a chance i would stay in chatuchak and explore for the entire day and change alot alot of $$$$$!!! :(
had the chance to pop by chinatown where everything was sold in bulk! sandals for only 70 bt but i had to buy 6 pairs in ascending order! sigh regret la they were really pretty! and 70 bt is only like 3 + sing!!!

two pics from bkk i posted here cos the rest all in my fb! u would have seen them already i guess!

the day i threaded my brows! really feel much cleaner with thinner brows that have a defined shape! i duno its like u just feel better about ur face when u have nicely shaped brows... unfortunately for me, my brows are totally not even and it sucks la... everyone likes to poke fun at my brows! not only my brows la!!! u all know who you are!!
anyway i duno why but i am kinda sick of korean charboiled chicken at BBQ Chicken already! like i cringe of the thought of grilled chicken now...

hehe i think i look super skinny in this pic!! this shirt was like everywhere in bkk and i kinda like the quirky heart! haha!

had the bak kut teh opp central and it was good! i had two HUGA bowls of rice! so sinful i know! :( what to do... enjoy now and think about the consequences later.... i like the fact that the people go around refilling hot soup into my bowl! and the shiokest part was that it was raining and i felt so warm inside sipping the soup! YUMMMMMEHHHHH
took this random pic whilst waiting.... the water looks damn brown and muddy right!?!!? i think this is the day that orchard flooded! i am still shocked at the images and videos of the flood... madness i tell ya.. and i didnt know bukit timah area has been flooded quite a few times already!

NEXT UP: room transformation.... well sorta
my room has been the dirtiest and messiest room of the house and i really dont blame anyone but myself but the thing is my room is actually quite big and it was reduced in size because my parents didnt want their shelves and cupboards decided to leave them in my room and they just started gathering dust and the mess escalated...
had such a freaking horrible time clearing the room cos i had to clear all my cupboards, shelves and i had no idea where to place my stuff!?!? like everything was one BIG MESS.
i came back from dinner with the gals on friday and got to work... it was a nightmare. i sneezed non stop thanks to the dust. i almost died... duno how many times my heart stopped cos i sneezed so many times that night/nights after that...
anyway the main pt why i had to clear everything off was because my dad hired some guys to clear all the shelves and cupboards to make way for the queen sized bed...

say bye bye to old cupboard... in use from god knows when till early 2010. my mum painted it for me... we shared good memories didnt we? sigh... until eulynn hid in it and broke it. and this wardrobe was getting too small to hold all my clothes so i eventually got my new cupboard which has so much more storage space!

say bye bye to my IKEA shelves... lousy shelves... gave way so many freaking times... IKEA things are cheap but also cheap in quality...this was when it was half cleared already...

say bye bye to broken bed... it was taking up unnecessary space and gathered a whole chunk of dust at the bottom... my dad said when they removed the bed from my room there was one whole thick layer of dust!

say.... HI! to my cui bed.... which has too many pillows and soft toys... i duno how i accumulated so many soft toys.... liang and i had an obsession with mushroom soft toys at one period of time thats why i have many mushroom toys lying around... anyway u can tell how freaking messy i am from this pic... incurable disease of messiness...

i shoved all my stuff from the shelves to the top shelf of my new cupboard cos i was too lazy and couldnt be bothered...

check out the NUMBER OF BAGS I HAVE!!!! omg its like scary... i gave them all away to salvation army! anything u dun wan, just donate!!! BE A GOOD PERSON! LIKE YOURS TRULY! i donated all my sec school books, story books and exercize books, clothings... everything to them! hope someone finds them useful :)

clearing process... now still looks quite clean la...

and the end product....

an empty room with a lonely mattress and laptop. but i feel so much better like i have more space to walk around without the space constraint and before this it was horrid cos i was sleeping on the floor and i had zero walking space.

and whilst clearing my room, i found so many letters and cards written to me and i actually read through all of them and it brought back so many wonderful memories... primary school best friend, sec school best friends... church friends.. so many people i have lost contact/not close with anymore... thank you for all the sweet memories and i really thank god for everyone who has appeared in my life and been part of it.

Ok shall not emo anymore! HAPPY FATHER'S DAY TO PAPA CHOH!
He looks haggard and old here but i think he looks waaay handsome in real life! with a huge tummy!!! i keep telling him to drink less soft drinks and more water!! i bought him a card and wrote really touching words from the bottom of my heart to him and i even teared whilst writing it cos he is such a special person to me. Even though i hate him most of the time, he never fails to listen to my problems, believes in me, forgives me time and time again and always looks out for all 3 of us. We all love you and thank god for such a great dad. Thanks for being the greatest dad i could ever ask for and i really hope everything takes a turn for a better and i believe god will watch over you and bless you! :)

it all goes by

2010-06-07T09:45:00.001-07:00

decided to make full use of the circle line mrt station on a certain friday and stopped by stadium and went sightseeing at KLP... the place was freaking boring... thought there were like nice shops or sth... guess its more for families cos there were kids playing area and alot of parents brought their kids there. the bowling alley was full of kids from primary school! went there and walked around and finally went down to cold storage to get the ingredients for dinner! yay i finally had my cabonara after xxx years. sigh miss miss! master chef made me a plate and i demanded for a 2nd one and afterwards my 2nd plate was filled.. like a mountain! crazy asshole!!! and he added egg in the 2nd round which killed the taste! i dont like such eggy stuff! especially for spaghetti!

anw i am super tired even though i have been doing practically nothing. just lazing around and waking and eating at odd timings. will miss this lifestyle when school. kill me really. have yet to take my passport photo... went to international plaza to sign my contract for the temp job wif liang and then headed to hougang polyclinic to do my pre enrolment thingys. xray and urine test! first time doing a chest xray! had to go braless and wear a blue gown.. was comfy though! though my tits were exposed.. i was major covering them! but not really obvious! ok too much info but whatever! haha! the doctor was super cute! sobs. guess he saw what i looked like without a bra. totally flat :( there goes my chances! ok this is a joke la why am i even typing it here..

anw first time doing a urine test! and damn! i dun even know how to even pee into that thing so i basically jus filled the whole thing and the nurse is so annoying! the bag was transparent! like gross right! nvm hope she has fun testing my pee and hopefully nothing is wrong!! :(

i have been sneezing non stop.. anws tmr i have so many things to do. pack for bkk(im leaving wed morning like 7 frigging am!!) and go back to the polyclinic.. yadaydayda.. i duno what to pack this sucks.. hate packing...

NIGHTS NIGHTS~

just lay it down and follow me

2010-05-30T05:58:00.000-07:00

today had me screaming at the top of my lungs and i actually scolded the F word infront of my supervisor... i temporarily lost my mind
then came puddles of tears before stuffing my face with macs and a really swollen eye. all this happened after work... and lychee was by my side looking at my cui face poor me... and poor her staring at my swollen eye tearing! :( a happy day turned bad.

i really need rest + i am about to spend even more $ now. F21 SPREE FINALLY OPENED!

for now, i just wanna be alone.

nights

fly you away

2010-05-24T11:37:00.000-07:00

have not been blogging as much as i want to... only bcos im so tired from working!
even though its not everyday, but i haven been going out alot and theres not much change in my daily life... just everyday sleeping at 4 and getting up at 2 and on weekends working away!
managed to go to IKEA again and pig out and finally headed down to maxwell to buy the eggtarts! it wasnt as nice as i thought it would be... but the ones we ate were fresh from the oven and super piping hot! only problem was that it was tooooo sweet!

bought 5 but theres only 3 and a half here...
spent quite abit of time locating the place when i realised we could have just dropped at chinatown and walk down smith street... it was scorching hot that day... sweating like pigs!!!
anw theres a sad story behind what happened to these egg tarts... sigh shall not elaborate much as i do not wanna be sad again...

i think i have gained weight thanks to supper and not eating breakfast... damn!
went to sing K wif three crazy biatches last week and went to meet bestie after that! i almost fell asleep at her place and didnt wanna go home :( but my dad came to fetch me all the way home so i had to leaveeeee! meet chu soon! :)

im gonna head to bed now... see told ya ma life is boring.. stagnant... no change...

zai jian!

latest ;

2010-05-15T02:51:00.000-07:00

hey all, its been an eventful past few weeks! first was prom, then came our official graduation ceremony! cant believe how quickly 3 years has past. just.like.that. sigh, extremely emotional period for me as I will be parting from my friends and going on to my own path, just like everyone has to some point in their lives and we are gonna look back on our past photos and have a ball of a time laughing! who knows how much we would all have changed by then!

Lets start with PROM then!
it was a sad turnout really :( most hoping for more DC to come just like how everyone was so enthu in the beginning! in the end.. only few of us turned up. less than 3 tables of DC students and we were totally being dominated by the DIEM students.. as usual!
but it was a great night and three of us- gong zhu, valvalz and i won prizes in the lucky draw!! i was super elated!! kept on waiting for my number to be called... AND IT FINALLY DID!
what would have prom even better would be the food. srsly the food was like...!??!!? (speechless)
WASTE MY 80 BUCKS REALLY!
we went for celebratory clubbing session after that and mastered the art of dancing like a robot that night thanks to the whatever music they call it playing at zirca that night... my legs almost broke that night i swear.

with two of the best facilitators in SOH. weng yew, i will miss you very very much!! :(

yes, more weng yew haha!

as you all can see, theres only six of us! seoky didnt come for anything! not even for prom or graduation... disappointed in u seoky.. we all waited for u that night but u never showed up! :(

polaroids!! we all got to keep one! :)
anw all the fotos i koped from fb so shall not post so many here cos all kinda repetitive and also cos i was hating my hair that night... linette and i went to perm our hair that day and came out looking like two fresh ah maS. cries. and did i mention that the woman doing my hair was a total ultra BIATCH. TO THE CORE. she kept tugging really hard at my hair and i kept screaming. like hello!?!?! she practically jus wanted to tear my alr almost balding hair off my head. evil woman. and she freaking screamed at me and gave me a lecture cos i complained that she was pulling my "delicate" hair too hard.. crazy woman. never ever going back there again.

NEXT UP : GRADUATION CEREMONY
seok missing again...
my dad and sis turned up! my mum wasnt there cos she was overseas
i was expecting better food at the reception but by the time we reached almost all the food was wiped out and the beehoon was spicy :( went hungry after that...

i was super enthu (as usual) about taking pics that day! cos its like graduation y'know!?!?

here's xinyan and i and i was hiding my food behind his book.. cant tell right??

sis and dad.. yeah i know i look older than her so whatever!!!!

polaroids credit to valvalz

and we went for dinner at MAGIC WOK and seesha after that!
lazy to kope the seesha pics frm fb la..

YESTERDAY
Had an awful start to my day... i dont even wanna elaborate about it but the food cheered me up cos i finally had my mixed grill from Billy Bombers although i was majorly craving for salmon :( which i got to eat after this meal! went to 313's sushi shop at the basement to buy the salmon and only then did i feel alive...

i look crappy really. zhong dian is the food really...
watched the last song and cried a bucket of tears... my mucus was leaking non stop and i only had one pathetic pack of tissue... bring at least 3 packs if ur planning to watch it.

quite surprised at miley's acting but i guess she did great cos i cried! not to mention the handsome co star! *SWOONS* sigh sigh irritating miley is with him in real life! some people just have it all!

my fav scene! it was very cute! both of them have great chemistry!
and some annoying sec school students totally ruined some parts of the movie. i mean you wanna watch a romantic movie then dont go "OOOOHHHH" at the kissing scenes? i mean how old are u guys!!! LIKE 11? sheesh. really wanted to scream STFU at them big time. i sound like a bitch i know. ok nvm u would be irritated if u were me really!

at the end of the show, i came out looking like rudolph the red nose reindeer. i forgot to mention that someone was crying uncontrollably in the theatre and we kept tryna see who it was but it was a girl la DUH. must have been quite an emotional day for her.. (including myself) but i did the silent sniffles crying... *sobs sobs*
yeah so my mascara eyeliner and everything basically smudged in the theatre... ok if u didnt cry when u watch the movie u r declared a heartless person!

was talking on the fone to linette and we were feeling so hungry that we started naming all the good food we had in mind! which i am totally planning to buy and stuff into my alr expanding fat face next week!
bak kut teh!!!
the egg tarts from maxwell ( i really need them... they are like HEAVENLY!!!!)
more salmon... even though its so freaking expensive but what to do!!

cant believe my saturday is over just like that. shingz man.
goodbye~

KL.

2010-05-11T10:46:00.000-07:00

Hi hi... since i am total half jobless thought i'd just blog about what ive been doing..
which is nothing! for the past 2 days been working.. 18 hours for the entire weekend
and jobless for the entire week.. regret quitting the mandarin gallery job cos i thought i would get
some slots over at sgpools but apparently i was sooo wrong! le sigh, looking for a new temp job now and it seems quite ok! 1300-1600/mth doing data entry and customer service.. geez i hope it is as slack as mandarin gallery though!
it kinda sucks to be at home cos i'll prolly jus spend even more money browsing through the net.. but there doesnt seem to be anything nice to buy so kudos to that! (regret saying this... cos i jus bombed money on sth... :( )

WOOHOO AND I FINALLY WATCHED IPMAN 2 tdy! i duno why but everytime i watch IPMAN im always scared that he will die... cos u know in the first one he challenged the jap fighter and i thought he was gna die and in the end he got shot and i thought he was gna die and i felt so sad that he was gna y'know.. DIE. ok lame i shld stop repeating that sentence. then tdy he fought that ang moh irritant in the show and really looked like he couldnt make it! i am emo la.. over this kinda thing!
had astons and boy was it good! issit me or did the prices go up? thought the charboiled chicken used to be 6.50 and now its 6.90? ISSIT JUST ME!? shingz...

anw just a few fotos to share on my KL trip...
took many fotos mostly on the second day cos the first was jus spent exploring the place and i was too lazy to take piccas and "no one" wanted to help me take...

snap shots of the famous Petaling Jaya where u bargain (and its NOT THAT CHEAP) even
after all the bargaining :( but this was the place where we stayed for the 3 days! breakfast at the hotel sucked... but the rooms were clean and the service staff were friendly so i guess it made up for the sucky breakfast... we headed back to the hotel quite early like 9, 10 ish and ate snacks bought from the supermart.. cheese, chips and blah blah...
i never ever got around to eat the famous char kway teow stall cos i couldnt find it! sigh super huge regret! and i didnt even get to eat any nice malaysian delicacies... ate mostly at food courts, kfc, A&W... which was not bad as well.. cos the road side stalls looked really dirty and we didnt wanna risk falling sick/getting diahroea.. i have a weak tummy!

PAVILLION shopping mall.. another big shopping mall with the branded stores.. they have many many hugeass mega malls with many branded stores.. prada, tods, salvatore ferragamo.. u name it they have it! anw we changed so little money by the second day we were quite dry already!

we mostly travelled in their LRTS, MRT.. quite convenient but their LRTs are located quite far from the MRTs... and the weather was motherfucking humid... i would go out clean and after 10 mins of walking.. i would be sticky... hate the feeling of being sticky!

KLCC! pity i never even went up.. arrgh this trip was kinda boring la.. blame the company!
didnt really get to explore much!
took all these pics in the blazing hot sun!

forced him to take this random pic

FLOOR DIRECTORY of berjaya times square!
look at how freaking huge it is! u can get lost! and they have an indoor theme park inside which is really cool! took pics but i look hideous so lets just save myself the embarrassment!
btw this mall is separated into north south east west central wings...

ok some random picture taken in the coach while we were stoning

"stop calling stop calling i dun wanna talk anymore...." HAHAHA

some bak kut teh shop near the hotel...
apparently the BAK KUT TEH IS BERI BERI GOOD!

lame pic but i thought the flowers were cute!

what can i say? the trip ended on a bad note cos we were left stranded at berjaya times square on the day we were supposed to leave and thank goodness liang's fone had roaming or we would be sitting there like idiots... supposed to depart at 3 and the freaking coach only came to pick us at close to 5... some stupid road block or something... and at some checkpoint the coach's door spoilt and then the aircon spoilt leaving us stranded at the checkpoint terminal waiting for the new coach to fetch us home... never knew it was so hard to even get home... but boy was i glad to be back homeee! overall an enjoyable trip and i bought a few nice things for myself! HEHE!

xxxxx