Same shit different day

Everyday something will crop up, today was no exception.

endurance

been going through a rollercoaster of emotions lately. Mainly because I am stressed over so many things :(

1)Three exams coming up, starting from tmr

Econs-Organizational Behaviour-Financial Management (this is gonna kill me i swear)

2)Been receiving back bad test results. No one to blame but myself.

3) hard disk spoilt - all my fotos/shows/documents which I cut and copied to my hardisk is now gone. FOREVER. :(

4)Overslept for class

5)No matter how much sleep I get I am still tired

I'm trying to "study" so badly but its almost impossible. Just finished watching pretty little liars and I need to give myself a big slap. Had tze char for dinner, dad just came back with prata and yes I am gonna eat it. Slap myself again.

Praying for strength and brain juicies to overflow during the next three days before I scream hallejulah!

awesome weekend

spent the weekend relaxing at festive hotel and finally not having to worry about school work cause I finished them before making sure I enjoyed myself without having the feeling of something bugging me! I felt so liberated! FUCK SCHOOL. Making me age X100.

It felt good not to think about school at all and just soak in the atmosphere at RWS... managed to catch the fireworks at 9pm(blocked by buildings though), the water show with the robotic birds? Wanted to check out the ships and stuff but it was already closing @ 9pm :(

But!! Managed to get gelato from candylicious @ 1 FOR 1! Was happy lika small girl but I ordered the wrong flavour... azzuro (its this smurf coloured ice cream which was too bubblegummish for my liking)

anyway the sun was scorching and I didnt bring sunblock so basically I'm roasted... my face, shoulders... it hurt really badly last night but I applied a hydrating mask so I think it helped a little?

Hols are coming in 5 DAYS HALLEJULAH!!! there's so many things I wanna do during holidays, I know I make it sound like its damn long right... in actual fact it's only 2 weeks. ARGH

I have 3 exams next week. Sigh the thought of financial accounting exam makes me wanna cry cause I'm terrified :(((

I shall attempt to do some studying now, its already 7pm which means I wasted my entire sunday... how typical of me...

And all I can do is, try.

orry for the lack of updates, schools been kicking my ass. The lack of sleep, endless assignments, and exams is taking a toll on me. I don't think I have dreaded school this much... to the point of skipping it at least once a week. It's bad I know... and laziness always gets the better of me.

Wokay, off to finish off the remaining assignment and head to bed and get set for another looong weekend...

running away

One of my favourite songs when I feel like shutting the world out, great song.

It's 1.37am. I have been staring at my laptop doing everything but my school work thats due in 2 days? And I don't know why I am not feeling the urge to do it. What the hell is wrong with me?

As I pen this down, I'm thinking about my life. What have I achieved so far that I am proud of?

I feel absolutely directionless about everything. About my life, what I'm gonna work as in the future. I am so terrified of the future. Nothing seems right. There isn't a simple aspect in my life now that I am confident of. I know what I always say, see how it goes. But what if life doesn't grant you that choice of just going with the flow? What if I'm not that lucky?

I know I'm whining away again about my life when really what I should be doing is start doing something about it. What am I doing with my life? I need to get out of this shitty place I'm in. Life is too short. It really is.

Finally managed to settle all my air tickets and I'm relieved cause it's been bugging me for days- close to a week to be exact.

And I've been eating at irregular hours and the feeling sucks. I feel like I'm putting on weight everyday, like my shorts and shirts are getting tighter. But I don't care la...

I need comfort food tmr, badly. Cupcakes and thai food(without the spicy tomyam) sounds great...