fuck these tears

its 1.45am and I was supposed to be tucked into bed at 1.30 but yet here I am still awake with swollen eyes and a leaking nose.

I guess I just had to let it out - all this anger, fustration, hopelessness, defeatedness...

Life is passing by so quickly and yet here I am still stuck in the same place, and not progressing, seems to be just going downhill. As much as I would like to have a positive outlook on life, it just seems tough sometimes especially when you have lousy people in your life ruining things for you. It may just be a small tiny matter, but somehow it really gets under your skin.

I feel like just not caring about anything and not feeling anything but I am only human right?

I used to be a much happier person, but now look what has happened... I want the old me back. The cheerful, happy go lucky, free spirited girl I once was. Help me find her back... pls?

With a heavy heart,

Syb